Just trying to keep my hopes up.
Been screwing up since Friday omg :( Totally distracted the whole day, and I really did try not to think about it and enjoy the moments at high tea and movie! But it's hard....
That aside, I have decided to sleep early. Like max 1AM!! If not Idk what other mistakes I'll make :( And luck definitely is not on my side from the series of unlucky events I've experienced. I just ruined my wooden floor tiles on Sat! :/
I'm really hoping that I can get over these! I really think I have chronic stress man, the key stressor is
me, myself and I. Don't like feeling like a burden :(
Some happy pictures to make myself happier!
Let's hope I can be happier by the end of this week! :') Just a reminder to self to do timesheet later cause pay is coming innnnnnnnnn!
Song of the day : Not Spring, Love or Cherry Blossoms - IU, HIGH4
Wheeeeeee, finally had some time to blog at..... 2.30am ooops. Wanted to do this at 11 or so but okay I just so happened to nap till... 1 :D
Just trying to get used to typing with my keyboard here! Not used to having short Backspace and Shift keys, I'm like making mistakes everywhere, esp when I am writing letters with regards to my PA and Taiwan Exchange.
Speaking of which.. I FINALLY got the acceptance letter. Like omg everyone got it way earlier than me today. I'm happy, but now I'm like gna be super busy and rushed doing so many things, starting from getting a visa, apartment, tickets and doing course matching. :/ I'm like having super mixed feelings ever since exam ended - A part of me wants to go overseas and enjoy while I'm still young, but I really wonder if I can be as calm as I thought. I do believe that I'll be very homesick somehow, since I hardly leave my family's side and this time it's 5 months! :(
And I still have sooooo many other things to worry about. Been really distracted lately, esp the past 2 weeks! I just hope I'll have time to rant and be able to sleep well soon. Anw internship is fun; or rather the people are ones that made it so. I'm somehow glad to have a bunch of people whom I'm close with and yes, we meet up way too often after work. (I've been home pretty late on weekdays and missing out on home-cooked food!!)
And yes, I still have to worry about my cgpa now, sadly. Was really hoping for some decent grade such that I don't improve/drop, but I guess I'm just too unlucky. HAHA me an my -0.01 points. But somehow I am still damn glad that I didn't MC my papers despite dying from the flu/fever/cough within the 3 days. I hate my own exam curse >:(
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Hmmmmz..... I guess I'll update some other day.
Shall finish up on choosing my electives and sleep. Argh, don't like to look likka panda.
Yeah indeed, nobody said that.
While we are toddlers, the hardest things would be learning to walk and talk.
While we are elementary students, learning new things may be the hardest things for some of us. (Definitely not all, cause there're prodigies everywhere in different fields!!)
As we grow, we face more life problems that cannot be resolved easily. Somethings things will fall through, some will fall out.
Meh enough random rambling. Really really hate to say this, but I just hate to be taken for granted It just reinforces the fact about the quote: every man for himself. Even close friends around you can be your rival in some aspects :/ I mean like it just makes me want to hold back on to everything I have and not share like what everyone is doing. Argh but it's just against what I believe in. Or maybe I'm just too naive? I mean I define friends as those I am willing to do things for, even at no return. But you really cannot just take advantage of this "title" right mehhhhh. At this rate I think I'll just become damn selfish >:( But I really really don't like this feeling man.
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ARGH FORGET IT NOT GNA THINK ABOUT IT :( I shall just hope I forget about these soon, STM better work kkkk, though I know I hold the slightest grudge I have for damn long periods.
Now I should just focus on getting better and start getting my priorities right!
Title says everything!! Sighpie, as much as I have expected it, but why now oh why. Was fine till Friday mehhh. From the day that IT2 quiz was held I think life's not been nice to meeeee :( Panicked through my SAP quiz and it's bad! Sometimes I just wonder how can people be so IT savvy, and and those who can grasp everything after one try! #enviousmuch
Yeah anyway my weekend was burned! Whatever happened to my plans to study man (lucky I only brought tax notes and cf2 home!) Down with a flu on sat and I could barely get outta bed, horrible sorethroat on Sunday (but I made it for tuition anyway) and it just escalated to fever and aches everywhere. And today morning I can't even speak nor get up properly :(
So Yupz, I'm not prepared for tax and cf2 this week! It's just so hard to even concentrate on tax notes manz. I'm not even thinking about reading the textbook....... Dieeeeee Debz.
Back to reading, 4 hours to go! 3 topics @@ Goodluck for my quiz tmr!!
Anyway, did I mention that I managed to watch about 14-15 episodes out of the 21 episodes of YWCFTS marathon on TV within 2 days! Crazy much but yes, when you're sick you'd lie on the sofa and watch TV HAHAHA. And playing around w line deco!!
What would you do if you know that you only have 3months left on Earth?
Hehehe shan't say anything else cause I think I'll start my fangirl account of my fave characters and whatnot :X Just saying, Idk if I should be glad that I started watching this, cause I started halfway (and I'm super tempted to watch from scratch again if not because of time constraints) and I'm so into it that I just watched 4 episodes in a row amidst my projects and all. ARGH how can they have such a handsome alien on the show mehhhh!! But yeah, that's the current Korean show that I'm watching alongside with my hk dramas and other variety shows!!
Emergency Couple is next on the list!! :)
Heh anyway it just occurred to me that I have really bad memory. Went for Liangdeng's 21st party on Saturday, and somehow when they were reminiscing about the past, my memory has only fragments of it. Most of them seem so unfamiliar and vague :/ sigh I think I need to jot down my daily musings. What if I cannot remember important events in the future?!
Oh yeah these few days aren't that smooth sailing either. Screwed midterms, tripped on my foot, cut my thumb, late for interview, argh what else can I come up with? Debz y u so fail?! But other than that I guess the main issue is that I'm not very contactable lately cause my whatsapp is a lil crazy mehhh.
Lastly, HAPPY 21ST JIAYI. Super sorry that I couldn't make it down to the airport today; project meeting and I was pretty sick bleh. Hope you had fun being pranked hehehe! Your teddy will alw be here to give you warmth :)
Time to read up for my mid terms next week and finish up on my projects. Happy midweek :)
Wednesday, 26 February 2014
Just a little thought I had today. I guess my mind is cleared up and my mood is definitely better. Felt damn crappy since Saturday cause of the workload I'm facing, meetings and all. I feel like I cannot handle everything. Felt like running away from reality but there was nothing I could do except throwing tantrums to express how I really felt. It peaked on Monday, but I guess after the meetings and presentations by Tues I'm a lot calmer. Just that the lack of sleep made me sarcastic, which is really rare. I hardly shoot people down unless I'm really tired and just feel like making people shut up LOL.
But yay, pampered myself to make myself better. New watch and dresses (ooops) on Sunday and my fave eggtarts on Monday after IT meeting! :D And facial masks in hall to cover up my poor skin condition mehhhhhh. :/
Anyway I've got KPMG Tax interview yay. I think I'm really lucky cause many people didn't get any. So I should stop complaining that only ONE contacted me. Be thankful that I got one instead!
Mehhh, time to study for midterms. Cannot screw up acc3 :(
Saturday, 15 February 2014
Well I'm already into the 2nd month of 2014, and yes soooo many things have happened! Just a brief update yayyyy!
Anyway just saying eh, I've not been following my resolutions set heh. My study plan has obviously failed HAHA - I'm lagging in IT and abit in tax! And oh dear acct 3 is killing my brain cells though I did my preparations beforehand :( comm fund 2 is taxing but ok I'm working with liz and Aaron! :) Met a swedish groupmate, Per! He's nice, always saying that I did a good job though I didn't do that much work! Mehhh but anyways, at this rate I'll drop my second upper alr! But okay I can't blame anyone eh. Not very used to quiet environment in hall. I'll change my habits sooooon!!! Midterms in 2 weeks, letz hope I can make it!!
Oh yes speaking of hall, meet my roommate Michelle!! (no photos yet HAHAHA) A really nice roommate to talk to, and I hope she doesn't get stressed up by her grades!! I found someone who sleeps alot later than me! Hahaha and she says I'm alw so cheerful though I'm like stressed with work at times! Seems like my plan to smile more did work afterall!
Moving on! I've met my jc friends on my first day of school! Met up with some r6 friends in NTU too! And also did some shopping with weishan on cny eve. Other than that I'm too busy to meet people mehhhh or they're just weekly meetups like Laksa Tuesdays with Weishan, Kary, Lee and Huiting! Oror weekly jogs with them too LOL. #healthydebs back in hall!!!!
CNY was fun too!! Having a Polaroid is awesome cause I can collect these pictures instantly! :') took family photos too hehe! The only thing is that I didn't catch up that much this year, busy gambling oooops :X but yeah life's good during cny YAY :D never got pestered about bf/studies!!
Last good news is for weishan!! Super happy for you that you got to go Maastritch and also ahemmmm! My intuition is right hehe!! :D well I think I still prefer how my life is right now. Sometimes I still hold on to some hopes but well, things will come when the time is right! :)
Speaking of exchange, the sad news is that I didnt get Strathclyde in the first round, but I'm trying again. If not TAIWAN HERE I COME :) Hahaha it'll be damn cool if I can go Europe yeah :) can meet shubin and my parents can get the chance to visit me!!
Oh yes, I didn't get any email from deloitte while most of my friends already did. Bye big 4 :(
Lastlastlast news, FULL ATTENDANCE TODAY FOR NASCHOIRKIDS TODAY YAY!! Good time catching up!!! And so jelly that liangdeng and germ are going hk!!! I missed my eggtarts!
Songs of the day - Some (Soyou X Junggigo) and Brave - Sara Bareilles
ONE MORE WEEEEEEEK... to reality. I cannot say that I'm prepared or whatnot, I'm definitely still in my holiday mood~
Well anyway welcome 2014! :) 2013 has been a year of ups and downs even till the very last day, but well, I guessed overall it had still been a good year :)
Embraced the start of the new year in HK; though we didn't get to watch 'shooting stars' and fireworks at Tsim Sha Tsui, but well at least it was a good time catching up on life with chips, alcohol and.... seaweed (HAHAHA) till 5 am hehehe. Cannot emphasize (again) how grateful I am to have these bunch of friends in NTU :) I'm not an easy person to read, and definitely not an easy person to be close with. Insecurities often come to my mind often when I decide whether to open up or not, and how things will change after some . But well I guess I did manage to open up a little back in HK! Enjoyed myself since I got to eat, play and shop well hehe! Being back in HK also bought back many memories from the past with NASchoir toooooo~ Not going to elaborate on it but heh I missed meeting them!
& I'm contemplating whether to keep a written journal of my HK trip again! I did that once back in 2008, and well it'd be nice to write again and compare how different things have become. But then again.... I got no timee! Argh if only I had all the time to myself to sit and think back exactly how the past year have been :)
Did a bit of reflection after my HK trip, and yes that sort of planned out my resolutions in 2014! It's not as detailed as before, but I guess it's always good to have some sort of goal (no matter how insignificant it is) and some values to hold on to bring me through 2014. As every year passes, things will only get harder so yes it's good to make improvements too :)
1. Loved ones (family and friends) to be safe and healthy.
I cannot emphasize how much health is of high importance as we age. We get more prone to illnesses, and with new viruses spreading around the world, the chances of falling sick have definitely increased :/
So yup, I hope everyone around me stays healthy. Nobody likes to be sick and feel useless at any point in time!
2. To always strive to be a better person.
Things and people around you are always changing, and yes I finally realised that it's sometimes good for some sort of change for the better. Over the years I learnt that stubbornness lead to unhappiness to all parties, and sometimes, small changes such as compromising can see better results. Change (for the better) is essential to grow up as a better and mature person. This applies to studies too; seeking for alternatives and changing your ways of studying may lead to better results. Though we cannot always be changing to suit everyone's needs, changing for the better for loved ones is already more than enough :)
3. Don't lose faith and sight of what you seek to achieve in the long term because of the setbacks that you faced recently/ Look on the positive side of everything.
I guess this was something that I learnt over the past few years. Crying over spilt milk doesn't restore the milk to its original position. This is soooo applicable when it comes to setbacks such as failing to do well in xxx. I mean everything has already been fixed, and you have two ways to look at it. Firstly, either you cry/throw tantrums over what cannot be changed and forget about your goal, OR, learn from these mistakes and strive to make improvements in the near future to achieve your final goal.
4. SMILE MORE, even when you are not exactly that happy.
It helps to spread the joy and brightens the atmosphere! Laughter is a greater medicine, and such actions are pretty contagious like how yawns are. I mean when friends are down, you try to cheer them up right? Yes, you do feel sad with them and cry a little since you empathise with them, but we cannot be sad forever..... SO why not smile and make them smile too! :) It brightens up everyone's day and help to get over unhappy issues quickly.
5. Try to understand people more, but don't be overly sensitive.
I guess this is just my personal problem. I like to analyze what people are thinking given their responses for what I said/did. Sometimes it's good, when you know you left a good impression. However, it is not the same when you believe that they are hurt/upset by what I did unintentionally. Ah well, let me try to focus on my studies now instead of doing such things :(
6. Stop adding additional (unnecessary) stress to myself.
I guessed I mentioned it often, but yes, I need to stop crying/pulling my hair and do stupid stuff when I'm extremely stressed up. I really need to start saying "yes I can do this, let me try a while longer before I skip this" OR "hmmm I guess I should ask xxxx how to go about doing this" instead of "ARGH I cannot do this at all omggggg and there are still so many things left undoneeee T_T"
7. Better time management.
Nuff said. Hahah less TV time debbbbbzzzzzz!
8. Lose weight.
HAHAHAHA whatever happened to my plan last year mannn. Time to run again!! Well at least, I just want to be how I was last year. NO NEED to lose that much weight LOL.
9. Communicate better with people!
No harm making more friends and slowly opening up right? :)
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Well time to wash the toilet, HAHAHA.
Shall start doing the assignment and finish it tomorrow. Last few days of holidays are going to be really packed! And yes, I will start to get into the mood for school :) And speaking of which I need to move more things to hall again. Not enough clothes + no pillows + no bedsheets. HAHAHA good job debs x.x
Lastly..... Study plan this year? Prepare - Understand in class - Revise. Need to stick to this mannnn!
Here's the song for the dayyyyy! Was watching my shows and live performances when I came across to this song! The lyrics are :))) First snow by EXO is also nice too! The live performance is
here! HAHAHAHA Chanyeol's derp face!
Results are out today and I wished I'd never checked them at all. Like seriously I just feel like shit and disappointed and maybe angry at myself blehhh. I know where I roughly stood but both my sem 1 grades for the 2 years are equally crappy; I only have 2 different (cuiiii) grades for this sem :( I'm so glad that I passed my company law though, no more C and its even better than my stats :S But still looking at the GPA for the current semester only tells me that IT'S TIME TO WAKE UP AND BUCK UP!! Hopefully the hall stay in Sem 2 will help. Definitely less TV and unnecessary dozing off in-between. Accounting 2 made me realised that projects and midterms are really really important too, esp if you get such an easy paper for finals. Shall not say that the final lap can make a huge difference; time to be consistent peopleeee.
Enough ranting for my results. Probably will brood over it for a while, but shall think of it this way; at least my CGPA is not too bad, but there's still many rooms for improvements to make it even better. Probably need to pull it up a bit more so that I feel safe..
Loooooong day ahead. 3-4 hours of tuition followed by overnight Saboteur. HK in 3 days' time and yes I'll start 2014 well and be more studious kkkkkk GO DEBZ!
Saturday, 14 December 2013
Hehehe blogging from my phone that had been a great companion thus farrrr :)) I'm soooooo glad to say, I'VE SURVIVED YEAR 2 SEM 1!!! *waves pom pom*
Honestly this semester wasn't as smooth sailing, primarily because of all the getting used to..
1) waking up at 6am for 8.30am lessons
2) surviving super long hours with consecutive lessons and falling asleep on the way home
3) controlling my temper when I couldn't handle stress and such
Also getting used to work with other people. Sometimes it's just a little ironic that we all have the same timetable but never got to work together at all :/ hopefully this wouldn't happen again hehhh. It's...... Risky yknow. I'm glad my groupmates this sem are pretty nice but I can't say the same for the following sem :/
Anyway post exams were great :) got to shop with my parents after a loooooong time hehhhhh :)) and also catching up on sleep and my shows! Hehehe wanted to.post my lovely 1-day curls but well... Next time then!
STAR wars today and yay I managed to get my mods! :) hopefully next sem will be better :( 4 cores 1 elective LET'S GO! Need to survive all this shit!
And I've got a hall for sem 2!!! Thought about it for quite some time!! Had to factor in....
Whether I really need it, cause afterall, I'm sort of used to traveling for the past sem, and...
Cost. I got the non aircon hall so it's less expensive but it's still a financial burden sigh. Times when I wish money actually falls from the skyyyyy.
It's not Hall 2 afterall. I'm not good with socializing and so... Unfamiliar with the surroundings and people. :/
My roomie is not someone I know. I'm just glad she's a freshie from NBS :)
But yeah I took it anyways. If it can pull my grades up and save the travelling time.... I guess it's not too bad :)
Shall watch running man. Need to enjoy my last holiday while I can!!!
Have a good holiday everyone :)
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