I always believe that there needs to be a closure to everything before we can keep the memories safe elsewhere... and to get over any sadness because of goodbyes.

Internship ended last week! Gonna miss those bunch of fun-loving interns and associates :'( Hahaha tried damn hard not to cry but okay once I entered the lift I was already tearing! And just like it's hard to control my laughter, it's also very hard to stop my tears from flowing. When Claudia left Starbucks cause she wasn't joining us for dinner I was literally tearing again ooops. But yeah, I'm really glad to have enjoyed my internship this much to be crying after 10 weeks. Didn't felt so sad leaving my job for my past few vacation jobs eh :/

Hehh but yeah, gonna miss those random morning gatherings at Huiqi's desk, epic Saboteur and foosball moments at the clubhouse, running Tuesdays, yoga Fridays, entertaining moments at level 13 thanks to Andy, Huiqi and Jeremy, those random FLS-ing in the morning, those random talks we have on the way home after work with go-home buddies (though it only lasted awhile cause we all started leaving at different timings and not going home straight after work for various reasons), etc!
Oh yeah, had lunch with the seniors on the last week and the unit bought us cakes for our farewell! Super touched! Really thank you for making internship so enjoyableeeeeeeeeeee :) I really hope to keep in touch with these people, though I know it's gonna be damn hard since I'll be physically away in Taiwan for the next semester :/ At first I really did wondered if I should open up to them, forge really good friendships with them since I wouldn't see them after internship, but I'm glad I did :)



Hehehe oh yeah some of us went Bintan for a short getaway from 24th to 26th July! Hehehe so much fun there, chilling and playing sports together! Water sports are super scary but fun! Never gonna try it again though; guess it'll be a good memory with the interns! Shall update on this if I ever have time heheheh ooops!



P.S. I gained weight form the getaway. Something surprising for me cause I usually wont have the appetite when I'm overseas. YAY to me trying new food at bintan :X

But I was really hoping more people to join us though :( Cause Idk when I'll see them again before I fly off and I am still insistent not to tell people when I'm flying unless you really really want to send me off and see me cry buckets of tears HAHAHA.

Hehehe okay time for scalp treatment! Hehehe shall end off with an article related to closure from Thought Catalog here. It's never easy to end an almost-relationship. I've been there, experienced those moments of frustration and I'm glad I've gotten over it (and for quite a while already)! Cheers to being single and carefreeee hehehe :D

Super tired omggg. Poor legs are still aching from the Victoria Secret Workout on Friday morning (yoga was replaced with this cause the instructor couldn't make it!)

But somehow I just can't fall asleep. It's not a good thing I know, cause the lack of sleep makes me cranky and the pimples are popping out omgggg. Plus the eyebags and eye rings. Argh :( but what can I do. I can't sleep at night but I have to wake up early daily :/ there's so many things going on in my mind sigh. And I can't seem to find the solutions to all my concerns etcccc.

I'm really hoping to be able to sleep soon sigh. Body clock is too screwed up. And I did try... Writing the Korean lyrics hoping that I'll start to feel tiredddd. IU's songs best explain my mood nowww. Like you don't have to know the lyrics to 'feel' the song! I almost teared listening to this for the first timeeeeeeee.

故事的小黄花
从出生那年就飘着
童年的荡秋千
随记忆一直晃到现在


ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一
吹着前奏望着天空

re sou sou xi dou xi
ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
la sou la xi xi xi xi la xi la sou

我想起花瓣试着掉落
为你翘课的那一天
花落的那一天
教室的那一间
我怎么看不见
消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍
没想到失去的勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开
刮风这天 我试过握着你手
但偏偏 雨渐渐
大到我看你不见
还要多久 我才能在你身边
等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
从前从前 有个人爱你很久
但偏偏 风渐渐
把距离吹得好远
好不容易 又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜

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Just the song that's stuck in my mind. :)

Drank a lil too much today; instead of forgetting my worries/concerns/unhappiness, I ended up being too talkative and whiny hahaha. Really cannot drink cause I hate the tipsy feeling and I know I'll blurt out everything that I've been wanting to keep to myself :((

Anyway I've met my PM for performance evaluation today. I guess it's not too bad, but I'm sure I can't get the priority offer. Oh wells, I guess I should just enjoy the remaining three weeks and make the best out of my internship! :) At least I've achieved my objective of getting an internship in the big 4 and made new friends who make me happy (and frustrated from the teasing HAHA) daily!

And my mum is really supportive, she said it's ok if I don't work at big 4 upon graduation! So long as I'm able to cope and that I'm happy, small firm also can, just don't be unemployed HAHA. Well I guess while I hope to get PO, I shall not be overly ambitious and set high expectations :))

Time for bedddd. It's past one, cause we only celebrated my mum's birthday aft 12 mehhh. And I'm super sorry for not gg for dinner with LWP people!!!!