I always believe that there needs to be a closure to everything before we can keep the memories safe elsewhere... and to get over any sadness because of goodbyes.

Internship ended last week! Gonna miss those bunch of fun-loving interns and associates :'( Hahaha tried damn hard not to cry but okay once I entered the lift I was already tearing! And just like it's hard to control my laughter, it's also very hard to stop my tears from flowing. When Claudia left Starbucks cause she wasn't joining us for dinner I was literally tearing again ooops. But yeah, I'm really glad to have enjoyed my internship this much to be crying after 10 weeks. Didn't felt so sad leaving my job for my past few vacation jobs eh :/

Hehh but yeah, gonna miss those random morning gatherings at Huiqi's desk, epic Saboteur and foosball moments at the clubhouse, running Tuesdays, yoga Fridays, entertaining moments at level 13 thanks to Andy, Huiqi and Jeremy, those random FLS-ing in the morning, those random talks we have on the way home after work with go-home buddies (though it only lasted awhile cause we all started leaving at different timings and not going home straight after work for various reasons), etc!
Oh yeah, had lunch with the seniors on the last week and the unit bought us cakes for our farewell! Super touched! Really thank you for making internship so enjoyableeeeeeeeeeee :) I really hope to keep in touch with these people, though I know it's gonna be damn hard since I'll be physically away in Taiwan for the next semester :/ At first I really did wondered if I should open up to them, forge really good friendships with them since I wouldn't see them after internship, but I'm glad I did :)



Hehehe oh yeah some of us went Bintan for a short getaway from 24th to 26th July! Hehehe so much fun there, chilling and playing sports together! Water sports are super scary but fun! Never gonna try it again though; guess it'll be a good memory with the interns! Shall update on this if I ever have time heheheh ooops!



P.S. I gained weight form the getaway. Something surprising for me cause I usually wont have the appetite when I'm overseas. YAY to me trying new food at bintan :X

But I was really hoping more people to join us though :( Cause Idk when I'll see them again before I fly off and I am still insistent not to tell people when I'm flying unless you really really want to send me off and see me cry buckets of tears HAHAHA.

Hehehe okay time for scalp treatment! Hehehe shall end off with an article related to closure from Thought Catalog here. It's never easy to end an almost-relationship. I've been there, experienced those moments of frustration and I'm glad I've gotten over it (and for quite a while already)! Cheers to being single and carefreeee hehehe :D

Super tired omggg. Poor legs are still aching from the Victoria Secret Workout on Friday morning (yoga was replaced with this cause the instructor couldn't make it!)

But somehow I just can't fall asleep. It's not a good thing I know, cause the lack of sleep makes me cranky and the pimples are popping out omgggg. Plus the eyebags and eye rings. Argh :( but what can I do. I can't sleep at night but I have to wake up early daily :/ there's so many things going on in my mind sigh. And I can't seem to find the solutions to all my concerns etcccc.

I'm really hoping to be able to sleep soon sigh. Body clock is too screwed up. And I did try... Writing the Korean lyrics hoping that I'll start to feel tiredddd. IU's songs best explain my mood nowww. Like you don't have to know the lyrics to 'feel' the song! I almost teared listening to this for the first timeeeeeeee.

故事的小黄花
从出生那年就飘着
童年的荡秋千
随记忆一直晃到现在


ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一
吹着前奏望着天空

re sou sou xi dou xi
ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
la sou la xi xi xi xi la xi la sou

我想起花瓣试着掉落
为你翘课的那一天
花落的那一天
教室的那一间
我怎么看不见
消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍
没想到失去的勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开
刮风这天 我试过握着你手
但偏偏 雨渐渐
大到我看你不见
还要多久 我才能在你身边
等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
从前从前 有个人爱你很久
但偏偏 风渐渐
把距离吹得好远
好不容易 又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜

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Just the song that's stuck in my mind. :)

Drank a lil too much today; instead of forgetting my worries/concerns/unhappiness, I ended up being too talkative and whiny hahaha. Really cannot drink cause I hate the tipsy feeling and I know I'll blurt out everything that I've been wanting to keep to myself :((

Anyway I've met my PM for performance evaluation today. I guess it's not too bad, but I'm sure I can't get the priority offer. Oh wells, I guess I should just enjoy the remaining three weeks and make the best out of my internship! :) At least I've achieved my objective of getting an internship in the big 4 and made new friends who make me happy (and frustrated from the teasing HAHA) daily!

And my mum is really supportive, she said it's ok if I don't work at big 4 upon graduation! So long as I'm able to cope and that I'm happy, small firm also can, just don't be unemployed HAHA. Well I guess while I hope to get PO, I shall not be overly ambitious and set high expectations :))

Time for bedddd. It's past one, cause we only celebrated my mum's birthday aft 12 mehhh. And I'm super sorry for not gg for dinner with LWP people!!!!

Just trying to keep my hopes up.

Been screwing up since Friday omg :( Totally distracted the whole day, and I really did try not to think about it and enjoy the moments at high tea and movie! But it's hard....

That aside, I have decided to sleep early. Like max 1AM!! If not Idk what other mistakes I'll make :( And luck definitely is not on my side from the series of unlucky events I've experienced. I just ruined my wooden floor tiles on Sat! :/

I'm really hoping that I can get over these! I really think I have chronic stress man, the key stressor is me, myself and I. Don't like feeling like a burden :(

Some happy pictures to make myself happier!


 


Let's hope I can be happier by the end of this week! :') Just a reminder to self to do timesheet later cause pay is coming innnnnnnnnn!

Song of the day : Not Spring, Love or Cherry Blossoms - IU, HIGH4

Wheeeeeee, finally had some time to blog at..... 2.30am ooops. Wanted to do this at 11 or so but okay I just so happened to nap till... 1 :D

Just trying to get used to typing with my keyboard here! Not used to having short Backspace and Shift keys, I'm like making mistakes everywhere, esp when I am writing letters with regards to my PA and Taiwan Exchange.

Speaking of which.. I FINALLY got the acceptance letter. Like omg everyone got it way earlier than me today. I'm happy, but now I'm like gna be super busy and rushed doing so many things, starting from getting a visa, apartment, tickets and doing course matching. :/ I'm like having super mixed feelings ever since exam ended - A part of me wants to go overseas and enjoy while I'm still young, but I really wonder if I can be as calm as I thought. I do believe that I'll be very homesick somehow, since I hardly leave my family's side and this time it's 5 months! :(

And I still have sooooo many other things to worry about. Been really distracted lately, esp the past 2 weeks! I just hope I'll have time to rant and be able to sleep well soon. Anw internship is fun; or rather the people are ones that made it so. I'm somehow glad to have a bunch of people whom I'm close with and yes, we meet up way too often after work. (I've been home pretty late on weekdays and missing out on home-cooked food!!)

And yes, I still have to worry about my cgpa now, sadly. Was really hoping for some decent grade such that I don't improve/drop, but I guess I'm just too unlucky. HAHA me an my -0.01 points. But somehow I am still damn glad that I didn't MC my papers despite dying from the flu/fever/cough within the 3 days. I hate my own exam curse >:(


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Hmmmmz..... I guess I'll update some other day.
Shall finish up on choosing my electives and sleep. Argh, don't like to look likka panda.

Yeah indeed, nobody said that.

While we are toddlers, the hardest things would be learning to walk and talk.
While we are elementary students, learning new things may be the hardest things for some of us. (Definitely not all, cause there're prodigies everywhere in different fields!!)
As we grow, we face more life problems that cannot be resolved easily. Somethings things will fall through, some will fall out.

Meh enough random rambling. Really really hate to say this, but I just hate to be taken for granted  It just reinforces the fact about the quote: every man for himself. Even close friends around you can be your rival in some aspects :/ I mean like it just makes me want to hold back on to everything I have and not share like what everyone is doing. Argh but it's just against what I believe in. Or maybe I'm just too naive? I mean I define friends as those I am willing to do things for, even at no return. But you really cannot just take advantage of this "title" right mehhhhh. At this rate I think I'll just become damn selfish >:( But I really really don't like this feeling man.
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ARGH FORGET IT NOT GNA THINK ABOUT IT :( I shall just hope I forget about these soon, STM better work kkkk, though I know I hold the slightest grudge I have for damn long periods.
Now I should just focus on getting better and start getting my priorities right!

Title says everything!! Sighpie, as much as I have expected it, but why now oh why. Was fine till Friday mehhh. From the day that IT2 quiz was held I think life's not been nice to meeeee :( Panicked through my SAP quiz and it's bad! Sometimes I just wonder how can people be so IT savvy, and and those who can grasp everything after one try! #enviousmuch

Yeah anyway my weekend was burned! Whatever happened to my plans to study man (lucky I only brought tax notes and cf2 home!) Down with a flu on sat and I could barely get outta bed, horrible sorethroat on Sunday (but I made it for tuition anyway) and it just escalated to fever and aches everywhere. And today morning I can't even speak nor get up properly :(

So Yupz, I'm not prepared for tax and cf2 this week! It's just so hard to even concentrate on tax notes manz. I'm not even thinking about reading the textbook....... Dieeeeee Debz.

Back to reading, 4 hours to go! 3 topics @@ Goodluck for my quiz tmr!!

Anyway, did I mention that I managed to watch about 14-15 episodes out of the 21 episodes of YWCFTS marathon on TV within 2 days! Crazy much but yes, when you're sick you'd lie on the sofa and watch TV HAHAHA. And playing around w line deco!!

Just a little thought I had today. I guess my mind is cleared up and my mood is definitely better. Felt damn crappy since Saturday cause of the workload I'm facing, meetings and all. I feel like I cannot handle everything. Felt like running away from reality but there was nothing I could do except throwing tantrums to express how I really felt. It peaked on Monday, but I guess after the meetings and presentations by Tues I'm a lot calmer. Just that the lack of sleep made me sarcastic, which is really rare. I hardly shoot people down unless I'm really tired and just feel like making people shut up LOL.

But yay, pampered myself to make myself better. New watch and dresses (ooops) on Sunday and my fave eggtarts on Monday after IT meeting! :D And facial masks in hall to cover up my poor skin condition mehhhhhh. :/

Anyway I've got KPMG Tax interview yay. I think I'm really lucky cause many people didn't get any. So I should stop complaining that only ONE contacted me. Be thankful that I got one instead!


Mehhh, time to study for midterms. Cannot screw up acc3 :(

Well I'm already into the 2nd month of 2014, and yes soooo many things have happened! Just a brief update yayyyy!

 Anyway just saying eh, I've not been following my resolutions set heh. My study plan has obviously failed HAHA - I'm lagging in IT and abit in tax! And oh dear acct 3 is killing my brain cells though I did my preparations beforehand :( comm fund 2 is taxing but ok I'm working with liz and Aaron! :) Met a swedish groupmate, Per! He's nice, always saying that I did a good job though I didn't do that much work! Mehhh but anyways, at this rate I'll drop my second upper alr! But okay I can't blame anyone eh. Not very used to quiet environment in hall. I'll change my habits sooooon!!! Midterms in 2 weeks, letz hope I can make it!!

 Oh yes speaking of hall, meet my roommate Michelle!! (no photos yet HAHAHA) A really nice roommate to talk to, and I hope she doesn't get stressed up by her grades!! I found someone who sleeps alot later than me! Hahaha and she says I'm alw so cheerful though I'm like stressed with work at times! Seems like my plan to smile more did work afterall!

Moving on! I've met my jc friends on my first day of school! Met up with some r6 friends in NTU too! And also did some shopping with weishan on cny eve. Other than that I'm too busy to meet people mehhhh or they're just weekly meetups like Laksa Tuesdays with Weishan, Kary, Lee and Huiting! Oror weekly jogs with them too LOL. #healthydebs back in hall!!!!

CNY was fun too!! Having a Polaroid is awesome cause I can collect these pictures instantly! :') took family photos too hehe! The only thing is that I didn't catch up that much this year, busy gambling oooops :X but yeah life's good during cny YAY :D never got pestered about bf/studies!!

Last good news is for weishan!! Super happy for you that you got to go Maastritch  and also ahemmmm! My intuition is right hehe!! :D well I think I still prefer how my life is right now. Sometimes I still hold on to some hopes but well, things will come when the time is right! :)

Speaking of exchange, the sad news is that I didnt get Strathclyde in the first round, but I'm trying again. If not TAIWAN HERE I COME :) Hahaha it'll be damn cool if I can go Europe yeah :) can meet shubin and my parents can get the chance to visit me!!
Oh yes, I didn't get any email from deloitte while most of my friends already did. Bye big 4 :(


Lastlastlast news, FULL ATTENDANCE TODAY FOR NASCHOIRKIDS TODAY YAY!! Good time catching up!!! And so jelly that liangdeng and germ are going hk!!! I missed my eggtarts!

Songs of the day - Some (Soyou X Junggigo) and Brave - Sara Bareilles