Best song to describe my mood~ :) From my all-time fave artist hehhh.



Still crankydebz, partly because of my wound that's hurting a lot during the weekends. Like it was a little swollen and red, and it really scared the shit out of me so yes, I didn't walk much, literally rotted in the room playing Audi. Yeaps, I re-downloaded it after.... 3 years? Hahaha partly because I'm really bored sometimes when I'm in the room alone, andand I went to click on mes'd blog, so yeaps memories started coming back.. to those secondary school & partly JC days. Really missed those times when we were all soooo happy and I really enjoyed being (one of) the youngest there HAHA.


And I guess there are some things I need to sort out first and clear my mind before I can be the super bubbly debz again. So many things going through in my mind I cannot handle ahhhh.

Back to the docs today (AGAIN HAHA) to check if my wound was still swollen. I guess my leg hates the doctor too, it looked perfectly fine today whuttt. No swelling and it's not even close to being red and painful when I was there. Sigh NT100 just flew for letting the nurse know my wound is okay. So I guess I can exercise later in the evening :) So much work to do this week - Risk Mag questions, Biz val research and need to prep for the tests coming up next Friday! :(

Mehhhh back to listening 12:30!

Hahaha google translated this phrase! Just feeling a bit bewildered lately and Idk why. But I guess I'll be my usual self soon! Anyway 5 weeks of school passed and I don't think I'm learning much in my core lessons - I'm forever lost and somehow some lectures in English does not help. Esp when you need to spend additional time figuring out what was the lecturer talking about. And 'cause of this too, I'm glad I'm on exchange and not clearing these modules in Singapore! :)

So far I've only been out of Kaohsiung twice - once to Taichung and to Tainan & Kenting! I think I'm just super sway uhhh. Got skin allergies from touching and hugging the sheeps at Cing Jing Farm; and I fell off an ATV on the second day when we were at Kenting (I'm also very amazed by what I did srsly. I doubt anyone has fallen off a 4-wheeled bike before uhhhh :/). And hence...... I didn't get to play water sports!! Super sad 'cause Kenting is the place where you should play their land/sea sports!! But at least I tried their Go-Kart! I know why I'm never getting a license. & The fall convinced me further HAHA - I'm a reckless driver who can't really drive properly and I like to make sharp turns. I'm going to stick to being chauffeured in the future! :D

Now I'm just hoping for my wound to heal soooon! Cause it was an open wound, I didn't disinfect it in time and still went to play with seawater *shrugs* And the fact that I didn't (no I couldn't) disinfect it properly (cause it was soooo painful) made it really infected when I went to the doctor's on Monday. And now my left leg is sooo gross I can't even bear to look at it also sighpie! Need to get rid of the blueblacks and cuts toooo :( Sigh I think I'm spending too much at the doctor's, even she was surprised to see me again ooops.

Anw I'm sooo gad I bought clothes recently, esp at CACO. Not very cheap but it's nice and I like it HEHE. (My pocket's alot lighter now also oh no!) Shall try to control myself and not overshopppp.(hehehe thanks Michy for always nagging me to control HAHA)

Here in Taiwan! :) Just glad I'm not homesick yet, cause..... yeah. It's already weird to be away from home and now having a couple around is just a little awkward sometimes (I think I just need som getting used to :S). But other than that I guess I'm still doing well!

Anyway I had my final MBS staycation on the last Monday in Singapore!! Met le tamp buddy; we wore matchy outfits and had short hair hehehe! And I'm just glad they are still doing well after our internship (well, technically they were used to working without us before May :P What I mean was probably we sill keep in contact yeah :D) And yes, I met the usual bunch of interns on Tuesday! Really thankful that they decided to hold a farewell party for me and also with the additional intention to get the Double Ds (Derek & Dominique) to meet up HAHAHA. Definitely friends to keep cause they still use Whatsapp so I'm not totally left out after leaving Singapore! Speaking of which, we won the SQP photo competition thingy which entitles us the $50 Starbucks card,,, and they are waiting for me to be back to drink together! (AWWW :D) Met Michie on Wednesday briefly over lunch and icecream! Soooo thankful for the box of macaroons, and really wished we weren't apart :(

Headed for HK from Thursday to the following Monday. The weather was hotttttt, and I just felt super apologetic most of the time for being such a bad planner. I shall not volunteer to do something like this again. Felt super bad when the guys have to keep using GPS :( But other than that I guess it's alrightzzzzz.

Hehehe I'm doing a written diary for my exchange trip instead, cause I am lazy to type and blog mehhhhh. Thanks Huaaaaa for the suggestion :D

Time is slipping away - 6 more days! Not gonna meet up with people anymore cause.... I'm sooo broke (& I don't get allowance anymore). And 'cause I have yet to finish packing my stuff, like seriously HAHAHA. So far I've only packed tops/dresses/jeans/winterwear... and I remembered I forgot to pack my shorts ._. And I only bought 1 set of long johns to try, shall get the next 1-2 sets tomorrow!! And also more vacuum bags, cause I only intend to ring one luggage there!

I've yet to change currency for both Taiwan and Hong Kong. Super lazy to head down to Arcade :( And my phone line toooo - Need to put it on hold! Now I'm also undecided on how to bring my TWD there, like whether to bring cash there / telegraphic transfer! :/

On a much much happier note after dwelling over course registration for the past 2 nights, I've finally settled that too! Been staying up late to look at the courses and plan timetable, and yet feeling so frustrated cause they didn't provide details for me to do my course-matching. And thinking about what's the not done yet always made it worse mehhh. But yay, in the end, they do offer risk management and my business valuation module is approved by NTU!! Omg if they didn't offer these I'll have 3 cores to clear in the last semester lor!!
Plus, it's a 3 day week if all goes well!!! Monday &Thursday free :)  But I'm just hoping to get all the modules, heck it if the timetable gets screwed up. I cant imagine having 200+ people fighting for only 100 slots per class. And the priority ranking of the modules is like SMU omg :/ I really hope to clear all 5 modules there!! And I signed up for table tennis HAHAHA. Need to exercise even when I'm overseas!

Lastly..... I've snipped my hair short!! Nobody believed I would cut it short but yay it was a good change! Did soft rebond to make it less frizzy and manageable, though it already looked nice before the treatment! And now I thought I should've cut it even shorter HAHA.

Anyway it's always fun to hear Kary rant HAHA. Let's hope I'm really not the one doing most of the work for the book in Taiwan okay!! If not I'll be quite upset too (though Kary has been ranting and saying that I'm kelian since the start of this week. Guess I really look like I'm nice to bully hor HAHAH.)

Current fave song, the chorus is catchy hehehe :D

You know your body clock is super screwed when... It's 330 in the morning and you're super awake though it's been a loooong day today!!

But honestly I'm just super glad and relieved cause I accomplished some things and struck things off my to-do list! ;)

- Meeting up with kiwi and jennnn to to exercise, yay to clearing 3km today, making it about 4.5-5 km this week! Sigh I think I'll have a hard time adapting when I fly man, need to stop meeting people already!!!

- COMPLETING OUR PART OF WEISHAN'S SKETCHBOOK. Hahaha super happy, we cleared 22 pages of our own. Worth spending my whole day in the room to do and allowing kary to finish up cause I couldn't finish much alone, it's damn hard to come up with designs omg!! GOODJOB TO KARY AND I YAYYYY! There're sneakpeaks! I shall collage them and upload someday, cause I'll only get to see the completed one in tw!! And worth coming back so late today though my parents aren't that glad that I'm going school a tad too often while on OSL.

- ADDED MORE COURSES FOR MATCHING! :) finally used the lappy! Cause risk management isn't offered, I need to clear my UE instead! Hoping to get introduction to psychology or the mod that sounds like religious thoughts!! Hehehe I really like to take up humanities electives though I can't really write. Had a rough idea of my timetable and knowing that I can't take table tennis anymore :( but at least I planned my time alr!!

- Bought my flats and sneakers for tw! Really wanted vans but I'm definitely not bringing exp stuff to Taiwan except my handbag :/ My preorder from szejen is also here, hi new purse!!!!

Ok need to sleep cause le bro is waking up in 2 hours and I don't think he's sleeping well with the lights on :O

Before leaving sg for 4-5 months! As much as I'm excited to leave but there's always a part of me that wished that I'm staying in Singapore, studying those horrible mods instead. Simply cause I know I'll feel homesick really sooooon, and yes my close friends are mostly in Sg :( From those meetups I know how bad I'll feel too oh manz :((

And I'm really lazy/reluctant to pack my stuff. Don't wna shop much so I'm going to... Bring more clothes. Hehehe my new wardrobe is only filled with dresses and there's not even space for blouses. Time to clear themmmm!

On a happier note, accommodation has been settled. But I still have yet to plan my itinerary & change currency sighs. And not mention to prep a sketchbook for WS. (I hope she'll never sees this before we hand it over to herrrrr). Oh yes course registration isn't going very well too :O

I may not have the best of everything, but I'm always glad that I am able to get what I need to keep me happy, always :)

Feeling really glad/relieved/fortunate after the week has ended, for many many reasons! :) I'm glad I have met up with different (groups of) people this week to catch up with them before leaving Singapore, though this probably meant that I've spent a lot toooo! But I'm really glad to be updated about people whom I really care :)

Met up with Bev on Monday for a cycle and some catching up! I think I'm really glad that I can tell her that I've moved on, after making a pact with her about a year back! And also those issues that I could not have shared with some people, I'm glad she is here to hear me rant and provide some advice :) Tuesday was spent with the interns; not with all though which is still a pity, but nonetheless it was a great time spent with them :) Met Lynn and Zt on wed to have vegetarian dim sum and I'm proud to say I've tried all the dishes we ordered! Hehehe I'm really trying hard to eating vegetables and mushrooms :) and I got to eat my fave vegan peanut pancake after a year omgggg #happymax!

Thursdate with Rae LG after not seeing her for 5 years, I'm sooooo glad we kept in contact even after your toot lp stopped audi in JC! She's 10 years older, but she still looks young uh!! And yes, we've definitely grown up. I'm a more matured xmm, and she's quite surprised that I think like an adult though I usually joke around like a kid HAHA. *pats head* I'm glad we're updated about each other's lives, and once again, thanks for hearing me rant! I don't really like to share my personal thoughts, so if I ever do share them with anyone, they must have mean alot to me uh! :) Met Michelle today, had a great time satisfying each other's cravings and take free instaprints! I'm happy to have known you in hall 1, and thanks for being a really nice roomie!! Keep in touch and study hard! :)

Caught up briefly with Andy and Shenghan at kscope finale too on Sat!

OH YES, I think I should say that I've had alot of good food in my stomach for this week, and I feel so fat to the extent that I went to run for first 6.5km! In less than 50 mins yay!!!

Secondly, I guess after living in the dark (literally) for less than a day, I really felt the need to cherish my loved ones! Yeaps during cycling a sand particle flew into my eyelid!! It was so bad that I couldn't open my eyes and it was so red and swollen!! And I was busy tearing omw back home after returning the bikes to protect my eye! I was really really scared, like cause I can't open my eyes, so I'm walking on the streets with both eyes closed most of the time (I can't really open my other eye cause when the eyeballs move, the swollen eye would hurt like crap). Really felt super insecure and lost, like I don't know what I was supposed to do! Eye wash and Eyemo both hurt so much that I just did my daily routine with eyes closed - watching TV, bathing, dinner and getting ready for bed. Cause I informed my parents about it too late and we decided to visit the docs the next day instead, I just thought - what if I can't see my surroundings tmr. :( and even till the minute I entered the clinic I was telling my eyes that I was really sorry and I felt bad and I will appreciate whatever I have now while I still can. Guess it's true - 不见棺材不落泪! I was sooooo thankful when the docs told me that he can just remove the particle by flipping my eyelid after that :D

And lastly, I got a verbal offer for a position in EY! Guess my parents are also relieved too, hehehe. I'll think hard before accepting the offer though, cause it's a full time job and yes, I don't want to have regrets! :)
(and I'm still thinking of how to break the news to some people :( and this totally reminded me of my conversation with LG about tact)

On a random note, I found a 2pm picture in the book I borrowed, it's a limited edition from 10x10!! :D and my tw buddy has finally contacted me!

Seeing that I'm soo happy I do hope that it doesn't signal the coming of all those bad news!! Yet to book tickets to Taiwan and hotel for hk omgggg please let all be well!! Accommodation too :(

Ending my super long post with HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE :)

I always believe that there needs to be a closure to everything before we can keep the memories safe elsewhere... and to get over any sadness because of goodbyes.

Internship ended last week! Gonna miss those bunch of fun-loving interns and associates :'( Hahaha tried damn hard not to cry but okay once I entered the lift I was already tearing! And just like it's hard to control my laughter, it's also very hard to stop my tears from flowing. When Claudia left Starbucks cause she wasn't joining us for dinner I was literally tearing again ooops. But yeah, I'm really glad to have enjoyed my internship this much to be crying after 10 weeks. Didn't felt so sad leaving my job for my past few vacation jobs eh :/

Hehh but yeah, gonna miss those random morning gatherings at Huiqi's desk, epic Saboteur and foosball moments at the clubhouse, running Tuesdays, yoga Fridays, entertaining moments at level 13 thanks to Andy, Huiqi and Jeremy, those random FLS-ing in the morning, those random talks we have on the way home after work with go-home buddies (though it only lasted awhile cause we all started leaving at different timings and not going home straight after work for various reasons), etc!
Oh yeah, had lunch with the seniors on the last week and the unit bought us cakes for our farewell! Super touched! Really thank you for making internship so enjoyableeeeeeeeeeee :) I really hope to keep in touch with these people, though I know it's gonna be damn hard since I'll be physically away in Taiwan for the next semester :/ At first I really did wondered if I should open up to them, forge really good friendships with them since I wouldn't see them after internship, but I'm glad I did :)



Hehehe oh yeah some of us went Bintan for a short getaway from 24th to 26th July! Hehehe so much fun there, chilling and playing sports together! Water sports are super scary but fun! Never gonna try it again though; guess it'll be a good memory with the interns! Shall update on this if I ever have time heheheh ooops!



P.S. I gained weight form the getaway. Something surprising for me cause I usually wont have the appetite when I'm overseas. YAY to me trying new food at bintan :X

But I was really hoping more people to join us though :( Cause Idk when I'll see them again before I fly off and I am still insistent not to tell people when I'm flying unless you really really want to send me off and see me cry buckets of tears HAHAHA.

Hehehe okay time for scalp treatment! Hehehe shall end off with an article related to closure from Thought Catalog here. It's never easy to end an almost-relationship. I've been there, experienced those moments of frustration and I'm glad I've gotten over it (and for quite a while already)! Cheers to being single and carefreeee hehehe :D

Super tired omggg. Poor legs are still aching from the Victoria Secret Workout on Friday morning (yoga was replaced with this cause the instructor couldn't make it!)

But somehow I just can't fall asleep. It's not a good thing I know, cause the lack of sleep makes me cranky and the pimples are popping out omgggg. Plus the eyebags and eye rings. Argh :( but what can I do. I can't sleep at night but I have to wake up early daily :/ there's so many things going on in my mind sigh. And I can't seem to find the solutions to all my concerns etcccc.

I'm really hoping to be able to sleep soon sigh. Body clock is too screwed up. And I did try... Writing the Korean lyrics hoping that I'll start to feel tiredddd. IU's songs best explain my mood nowww. Like you don't have to know the lyrics to 'feel' the song! I almost teared listening to this for the first timeeeeeeee.

故事的小黄花
从出生那年就飘着
童年的荡秋千
随记忆一直晃到现在


ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一
吹着前奏望着天空

re sou sou xi dou xi
ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
la sou la xi xi xi xi la xi la sou

我想起花瓣试着掉落
为你翘课的那一天
花落的那一天
教室的那一间
我怎么看不见
消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍
没想到失去的勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开
刮风这天 我试过握着你手
但偏偏 雨渐渐
大到我看你不见
还要多久 我才能在你身边
等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
从前从前 有个人爱你很久
但偏偏 风渐渐
把距离吹得好远
好不容易 又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜

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Just the song that's stuck in my mind. :)

Drank a lil too much today; instead of forgetting my worries/concerns/unhappiness, I ended up being too talkative and whiny hahaha. Really cannot drink cause I hate the tipsy feeling and I know I'll blurt out everything that I've been wanting to keep to myself :((

Anyway I've met my PM for performance evaluation today. I guess it's not too bad, but I'm sure I can't get the priority offer. Oh wells, I guess I should just enjoy the remaining three weeks and make the best out of my internship! :) At least I've achieved my objective of getting an internship in the big 4 and made new friends who make me happy (and frustrated from the teasing HAHA) daily!

And my mum is really supportive, she said it's ok if I don't work at big 4 upon graduation! So long as I'm able to cope and that I'm happy, small firm also can, just don't be unemployed HAHA. Well I guess while I hope to get PO, I shall not be overly ambitious and set high expectations :))

Time for bedddd. It's past one, cause we only celebrated my mum's birthday aft 12 mehhh. And I'm super sorry for not gg for dinner with LWP people!!!!