Before leaving sg for 4-5 months! As much as I'm excited to leave but there's always a part of me that wished that I'm staying in Singapore, studying those horrible mods instead. Simply cause I know I'll feel homesick really sooooon, and yes my close friends are mostly in Sg :( From those meetups I know how bad I'll feel too oh manz :((

And I'm really lazy/reluctant to pack my stuff. Don't wna shop much so I'm going to... Bring more clothes. Hehehe my new wardrobe is only filled with dresses and there's not even space for blouses. Time to clear themmmm!

On a happier note, accommodation has been settled. But I still have yet to plan my itinerary & change currency sighs. And not mention to prep a sketchbook for WS. (I hope she'll never sees this before we hand it over to herrrrr). Oh yes course registration isn't going very well too :O

I may not have the best of everything, but I'm always glad that I am able to get what I need to keep me happy, always :)

Feeling really glad/relieved/fortunate after the week has ended, for many many reasons! :) I'm glad I have met up with different (groups of) people this week to catch up with them before leaving Singapore, though this probably meant that I've spent a lot toooo! But I'm really glad to be updated about people whom I really care :)

Met up with Bev on Monday for a cycle and some catching up! I think I'm really glad that I can tell her that I've moved on, after making a pact with her about a year back! And also those issues that I could not have shared with some people, I'm glad she is here to hear me rant and provide some advice :) Tuesday was spent with the interns; not with all though which is still a pity, but nonetheless it was a great time spent with them :) Met Lynn and Zt on wed to have vegetarian dim sum and I'm proud to say I've tried all the dishes we ordered! Hehehe I'm really trying hard to eating vegetables and mushrooms :) and I got to eat my fave vegan peanut pancake after a year omgggg #happymax!

Thursdate with Rae LG after not seeing her for 5 years, I'm sooooo glad we kept in contact even after your toot lp stopped audi in JC! She's 10 years older, but she still looks young uh!! And yes, we've definitely grown up. I'm a more matured xmm, and she's quite surprised that I think like an adult though I usually joke around like a kid HAHA. *pats head* I'm glad we're updated about each other's lives, and once again, thanks for hearing me rant! I don't really like to share my personal thoughts, so if I ever do share them with anyone, they must have mean alot to me uh! :) Met Michelle today, had a great time satisfying each other's cravings and take free instaprints! I'm happy to have known you in hall 1, and thanks for being a really nice roomie!! Keep in touch and study hard! :)

Caught up briefly with Andy and Shenghan at kscope finale too on Sat!

OH YES, I think I should say that I've had alot of good food in my stomach for this week, and I feel so fat to the extent that I went to run for first 6.5km! In less than 50 mins yay!!!

Secondly, I guess after living in the dark (literally) for less than a day, I really felt the need to cherish my loved ones! Yeaps during cycling a sand particle flew into my eyelid!! It was so bad that I couldn't open my eyes and it was so red and swollen!! And I was busy tearing omw back home after returning the bikes to protect my eye! I was really really scared, like cause I can't open my eyes, so I'm walking on the streets with both eyes closed most of the time (I can't really open my other eye cause when the eyeballs move, the swollen eye would hurt like crap). Really felt super insecure and lost, like I don't know what I was supposed to do! Eye wash and Eyemo both hurt so much that I just did my daily routine with eyes closed - watching TV, bathing, dinner and getting ready for bed. Cause I informed my parents about it too late and we decided to visit the docs the next day instead, I just thought - what if I can't see my surroundings tmr. :( and even till the minute I entered the clinic I was telling my eyes that I was really sorry and I felt bad and I will appreciate whatever I have now while I still can. Guess it's true - 不见棺材不落泪! I was sooooo thankful when the docs told me that he can just remove the particle by flipping my eyelid after that :D

And lastly, I got a verbal offer for a position in EY! Guess my parents are also relieved too, hehehe. I'll think hard before accepting the offer though, cause it's a full time job and yes, I don't want to have regrets! :)
(and I'm still thinking of how to break the news to some people :( and this totally reminded me of my conversation with LG about tact)

On a random note, I found a 2pm picture in the book I borrowed, it's a limited edition from 10x10!! :D and my tw buddy has finally contacted me!

Seeing that I'm soo happy I do hope that it doesn't signal the coming of all those bad news!! Yet to book tickets to Taiwan and hotel for hk omgggg please let all be well!! Accommodation too :(

Ending my super long post with HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE :)

I always believe that there needs to be a closure to everything before we can keep the memories safe elsewhere... and to get over any sadness because of goodbyes.

Internship ended last week! Gonna miss those bunch of fun-loving interns and associates :'( Hahaha tried damn hard not to cry but okay once I entered the lift I was already tearing! And just like it's hard to control my laughter, it's also very hard to stop my tears from flowing. When Claudia left Starbucks cause she wasn't joining us for dinner I was literally tearing again ooops. But yeah, I'm really glad to have enjoyed my internship this much to be crying after 10 weeks. Didn't felt so sad leaving my job for my past few vacation jobs eh :/

Hehh but yeah, gonna miss those random morning gatherings at Huiqi's desk, epic Saboteur and foosball moments at the clubhouse, running Tuesdays, yoga Fridays, entertaining moments at level 13 thanks to Andy, Huiqi and Jeremy, those random FLS-ing in the morning, those random talks we have on the way home after work with go-home buddies (though it only lasted awhile cause we all started leaving at different timings and not going home straight after work for various reasons), etc!
Oh yeah, had lunch with the seniors on the last week and the unit bought us cakes for our farewell! Super touched! Really thank you for making internship so enjoyableeeeeeeeeeee :) I really hope to keep in touch with these people, though I know it's gonna be damn hard since I'll be physically away in Taiwan for the next semester :/ At first I really did wondered if I should open up to them, forge really good friendships with them since I wouldn't see them after internship, but I'm glad I did :)



Hehehe oh yeah some of us went Bintan for a short getaway from 24th to 26th July! Hehehe so much fun there, chilling and playing sports together! Water sports are super scary but fun! Never gonna try it again though; guess it'll be a good memory with the interns! Shall update on this if I ever have time heheheh ooops!



P.S. I gained weight form the getaway. Something surprising for me cause I usually wont have the appetite when I'm overseas. YAY to me trying new food at bintan :X

But I was really hoping more people to join us though :( Cause Idk when I'll see them again before I fly off and I am still insistent not to tell people when I'm flying unless you really really want to send me off and see me cry buckets of tears HAHAHA.

Hehehe okay time for scalp treatment! Hehehe shall end off with an article related to closure from Thought Catalog here. It's never easy to end an almost-relationship. I've been there, experienced those moments of frustration and I'm glad I've gotten over it (and for quite a while already)! Cheers to being single and carefreeee hehehe :D

Super tired omggg. Poor legs are still aching from the Victoria Secret Workout on Friday morning (yoga was replaced with this cause the instructor couldn't make it!)

But somehow I just can't fall asleep. It's not a good thing I know, cause the lack of sleep makes me cranky and the pimples are popping out omgggg. Plus the eyebags and eye rings. Argh :( but what can I do. I can't sleep at night but I have to wake up early daily :/ there's so many things going on in my mind sigh. And I can't seem to find the solutions to all my concerns etcccc.

I'm really hoping to be able to sleep soon sigh. Body clock is too screwed up. And I did try... Writing the Korean lyrics hoping that I'll start to feel tiredddd. IU's songs best explain my mood nowww. Like you don't have to know the lyrics to 'feel' the song! I almost teared listening to this for the first timeeeeeeee.

故事的小黄花
从出生那年就飘着
童年的荡秋千
随记忆一直晃到现在


ㄖㄨㄟ ㄙㄡ ㄙㄡ ㄒ一 ㄉㄡ ㄒ一
吹着前奏望着天空

re sou sou xi dou xi
ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄒ一 ㄌㄚ ㄙㄡ
la sou la xi xi xi xi la xi la sou

我想起花瓣试着掉落
为你翘课的那一天
花落的那一天
教室的那一间
我怎么看不见
消失的下雨天
我好想再淋一遍
没想到失去的勇气我还留着
好想再问一遍
你会等待还是离开
刮风这天 我试过握着你手
但偏偏 雨渐渐
大到我看你不见
还要多久 我才能在你身边
等待放晴的那天 也许我会比较好一点
从前从前 有个人爱你很久
但偏偏 风渐渐
把距离吹得好远
好不容易 又能再多爱一天
但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜

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Just the song that's stuck in my mind. :)

Drank a lil too much today; instead of forgetting my worries/concerns/unhappiness, I ended up being too talkative and whiny hahaha. Really cannot drink cause I hate the tipsy feeling and I know I'll blurt out everything that I've been wanting to keep to myself :((

Anyway I've met my PM for performance evaluation today. I guess it's not too bad, but I'm sure I can't get the priority offer. Oh wells, I guess I should just enjoy the remaining three weeks and make the best out of my internship! :) At least I've achieved my objective of getting an internship in the big 4 and made new friends who make me happy (and frustrated from the teasing HAHA) daily!

And my mum is really supportive, she said it's ok if I don't work at big 4 upon graduation! So long as I'm able to cope and that I'm happy, small firm also can, just don't be unemployed HAHA. Well I guess while I hope to get PO, I shall not be overly ambitious and set high expectations :))

Time for bedddd. It's past one, cause we only celebrated my mum's birthday aft 12 mehhh. And I'm super sorry for not gg for dinner with LWP people!!!!

Just trying to keep my hopes up.

Been screwing up since Friday omg :( Totally distracted the whole day, and I really did try not to think about it and enjoy the moments at high tea and movie! But it's hard....

That aside, I have decided to sleep early. Like max 1AM!! If not Idk what other mistakes I'll make :( And luck definitely is not on my side from the series of unlucky events I've experienced. I just ruined my wooden floor tiles on Sat! :/

I'm really hoping that I can get over these! I really think I have chronic stress man, the key stressor is me, myself and I. Don't like feeling like a burden :(

Some happy pictures to make myself happier!


 


Let's hope I can be happier by the end of this week! :') Just a reminder to self to do timesheet later cause pay is coming innnnnnnnnn!

Song of the day : Not Spring, Love or Cherry Blossoms - IU, HIGH4

Wheeeeeee, finally had some time to blog at..... 2.30am ooops. Wanted to do this at 11 or so but okay I just so happened to nap till... 1 :D

Just trying to get used to typing with my keyboard here! Not used to having short Backspace and Shift keys, I'm like making mistakes everywhere, esp when I am writing letters with regards to my PA and Taiwan Exchange.

Speaking of which.. I FINALLY got the acceptance letter. Like omg everyone got it way earlier than me today. I'm happy, but now I'm like gna be super busy and rushed doing so many things, starting from getting a visa, apartment, tickets and doing course matching. :/ I'm like having super mixed feelings ever since exam ended - A part of me wants to go overseas and enjoy while I'm still young, but I really wonder if I can be as calm as I thought. I do believe that I'll be very homesick somehow, since I hardly leave my family's side and this time it's 5 months! :(

And I still have sooooo many other things to worry about. Been really distracted lately, esp the past 2 weeks! I just hope I'll have time to rant and be able to sleep well soon. Anw internship is fun; or rather the people are ones that made it so. I'm somehow glad to have a bunch of people whom I'm close with and yes, we meet up way too often after work. (I've been home pretty late on weekdays and missing out on home-cooked food!!)

And yes, I still have to worry about my cgpa now, sadly. Was really hoping for some decent grade such that I don't improve/drop, but I guess I'm just too unlucky. HAHA me an my -0.01 points. But somehow I am still damn glad that I didn't MC my papers despite dying from the flu/fever/cough within the 3 days. I hate my own exam curse >:(


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Hmmmmz..... I guess I'll update some other day.
Shall finish up on choosing my electives and sleep. Argh, don't like to look likka panda.

Yeah indeed, nobody said that.

While we are toddlers, the hardest things would be learning to walk and talk.
While we are elementary students, learning new things may be the hardest things for some of us. (Definitely not all, cause there're prodigies everywhere in different fields!!)
As we grow, we face more life problems that cannot be resolved easily. Somethings things will fall through, some will fall out.

Meh enough random rambling. Really really hate to say this, but I just hate to be taken for granted  It just reinforces the fact about the quote: every man for himself. Even close friends around you can be your rival in some aspects :/ I mean like it just makes me want to hold back on to everything I have and not share like what everyone is doing. Argh but it's just against what I believe in. Or maybe I'm just too naive? I mean I define friends as those I am willing to do things for, even at no return. But you really cannot just take advantage of this "title" right mehhhhh. At this rate I think I'll just become damn selfish >:( But I really really don't like this feeling man.
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ARGH FORGET IT NOT GNA THINK ABOUT IT :( I shall just hope I forget about these soon, STM better work kkkk, though I know I hold the slightest grudge I have for damn long periods.
Now I should just focus on getting better and start getting my priorities right!

Title says everything!! Sighpie, as much as I have expected it, but why now oh why. Was fine till Friday mehhh. From the day that IT2 quiz was held I think life's not been nice to meeeee :( Panicked through my SAP quiz and it's bad! Sometimes I just wonder how can people be so IT savvy, and and those who can grasp everything after one try! #enviousmuch

Yeah anyway my weekend was burned! Whatever happened to my plans to study man (lucky I only brought tax notes and cf2 home!) Down with a flu on sat and I could barely get outta bed, horrible sorethroat on Sunday (but I made it for tuition anyway) and it just escalated to fever and aches everywhere. And today morning I can't even speak nor get up properly :(

So Yupz, I'm not prepared for tax and cf2 this week! It's just so hard to even concentrate on tax notes manz. I'm not even thinking about reading the textbook....... Dieeeeee Debz.

Back to reading, 4 hours to go! 3 topics @@ Goodluck for my quiz tmr!!

Anyway, did I mention that I managed to watch about 14-15 episodes out of the 21 episodes of YWCFTS marathon on TV within 2 days! Crazy much but yes, when you're sick you'd lie on the sofa and watch TV HAHAHA. And playing around w line deco!!