To mug till finals, sleepless nights, horrible eye bags... Most importantly, TO ANTICIPATE HOLIDAYS. Really looking forward to it, seems like I may get to enjoy it this time. Well I hope everything turns out well! Mummy's suggesting a trip to Korea and it's kinda plausible since Shaun will have a 2-week break in Dec and it's my holidays without those commitments! Well in the past I had piano and violin commitments, when I stopped both in JC, I had part-time work during the holidays and there was softball and bridge IHG one year ago. Idk but I really feel good not having so many commitments during the holidays cause it seemed that I never took a break in my 19 years..
Not to forget, we may be visiting Bev and MZ in Hong Kong! :) I hope none of these gets ruined because I really don't think I'll ever get to rnjoy my youth like that after I graduate.

Anw I'm halfway through the horrible 2 weeks!
Environmental quiz and Acct 2 midterms on the same day is no joke mannnz! But I'm glad it's over!! :) Y'know it's hard to strike a balance because both have significant weightage on my overall GPA :( And the first LWP quiz was too crappy that I cannot totally neglect the second one though my tutor said it would be easy (and it wasn't as easy as expected). As for acct 2, I'm just soo glad that I balanced and finished the paper though I crapped the last part cause I totally skipped revision for THAT particular section. But I know I made some mistakes (And yes I'm regretting for not following my instincts) but I'm just glad that I realised them right aft the quiz so it didn't bothered me too much! :)

I'm also sort of done with my part on Management meeting hehhh :)

Now it's just Korean!! Sigh assignment is due on Monday and I've yet to start! And quiz on Thurs right after MM :( And concert at night so I need to rush the report before the concert sighhhhh please let me survive this and get back on track!!!!

here's a really good listen :)

Teehee this is the current drama that I'm watching, and Idk if it's a good or bad thing cause I literally spent my hols reading up on parts of the recaps just in case I don't have time from next week onwards and watched a few episodes ahead of ONE. Sigh my TV radar is on again and it's super hard to stop cuz' I'm also following A Change Of Heart for now. Howwwwwwz.

Anw back to this show! Hehehe okay I'm really lovin' the Wed-Thurs timeslot cause this was after another favourite show of mine, I Hear Your Voice. It's has some horror elements but it's also funny and there's romance involved (well shows these days need to have this element ehhh) But I'm really liking the storyline, partly cause I like horror shows, and their romance isn't those.... super clingy and touchy kinds y'know. And I liked the fact that I actually felt sad for the leads at times and go frustrated when things don't go their way. Hehehe it's nice to see Seo In-Guk again! (loved him for his awesome character portrayal in Reply 1997) and Gong Hyo-jin is acting alongside with really good-looking & experienced actors again! *envious* Hong Sisters have definitely written a really good plot following The Greatest Love!



It officially aired its final episode yesterday! I'm currently on the 13th episode but I shan't watch too much cause I definitely had neglected my own studies after focusing on my accounting project and these. I barely started my Company Law assignment and not to say that my backlog is staring at me asking me to faster finish and get them filed up. Sigh with each semester getting worse, I guess I should really buck up mannz. Looked at the midterms solutions and concluded that I failed horribly, but I don't feel bad yet because everyone said it was hard. But then again, I wouldn't want to come to a point where my grades are reflected badly and I go crying or whatnot. Been constantly reminded that grades are important in this society :/

Hokay I shall stop watching soon and start doing some work cause next week is hell. Like really. Tuition on Mon and Thurs to prepare my student for her FYE. And they're on my long days. Shan't grumble because I offered these days first knowing that the papers are on the following days. But that being said, I have to read up everything in advance because I will fall asleep whenever I'm at home between 10pm-1am.

Anw I'm glad that I'm FINALLY meeting Rachelle too!! My confidante in Sec 2 :)) Need to claim $10x6 worth of money for winning my 'bet' hahaha kiddingz. Planned to meet up with Sheryl & Yingting soon alsooooo :)

Have a good day everyoneeee!

Labels: happy, master's sun, study, tv, uni

We all know the facts, but whether we choose to believe and accept it or not is another matter.

Call me sensitive, I'm not good at accepting all these; I need time and maybe a lot more than expected. Guess that's what happens when you are being OVERLY concerned in some matters. Looking through old photos make me miss catching up with people too, but Idk how I should even go about taking the first steps. Sigh I think being an extreme introvert does more harm than good as you shut out from everything you want to avoid :(



Argh Debz you should just stop thinking so much and continue living in ignorance.

I hate everything that is going on right mow. I am definitely not one who can manage stress, so yes this is the horrible period of having midterms and reports due in a week. And I'm definitely not coping well. (It's obvious at the rate I'm getting clothes; yes I do shop to relieve stress. Not a good idea but I can't open up to people and it's really frustrating to keep it bottled)

Literally spent the whole Friday on the sofa curling myself up into a ballz cause of cramps. And it's sooooo bad that I had to cancel tuition at the very last minute and just SLEEP. And the more I sleep the more guilty I felt for not doing anything and I'll panic like crap at such hours, like NOW. :( I really dk what my priorities are now... Anw I finally understood what my massager (is there even such a word?) told me about my health condition ATM. :/

I shall hope that I can stay awake in the train to read those Korean alphabets and greetings and whatnot. I enjoy the learning process but not the examinations. Or rather, I just don't like to be tested on what I'm learning. Just makes me feel really dumb amongst everyone else.

As for the report, let's hope I can at least fill up two points before I sleep if not I'll be all cranky and angst when my mum talks to me. I'd feel really bad but I can't control these ahhh.

AND MY BROTHER IS LAUGHING HIS HEAD OFF WHILE WATCHING RUNNING MAN. I ALSO WANT EH :(

Argh totally hates it when I try to probe about something or think too much over something that may be insignificant. Sigh totally hate this feeling cause sometimes you would just feel that you're left all alone - Nobody gives a shit about what you're fretting over.

I wonder if there's any way I could get rid of all these thoughts and uncertainties ever. Yknow it affects moods easily and short term remedies won't work out for longgggggg.

On a side note, I totally hate it when people say: It's not that I don't want to ask, but if I ask you would have said no anyway. Arghhhh is it just SO hard to ask people sometimes; there's a huge difference with asking and getting a 'No' reply and not even asking at all. Well, at least if you asked, people would have thought that you'd care for the person as a friend; Not askingis equivalent to not giving a shit at all. But then again, there'll always be people who ask for the sake of asking only :/

Sigh sometimes the littlest things are those that sieves out your true friends :(((

Argh shan't think about it,  time to do projectttttttttttttttttttt







"My best friend is the man who in wishing me well wishes it for my sake." - Aristotle.

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“I guess it's going to have to hurt, I guess I'm going to have to cry, And let go of some things I've loved to get to the other side. I guess it's going to break me down, Like falling when you try to fly, Sad but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life starts with goodbye” 
― Carrie Underwood 

Teehee, this used to be my favourite song :) Totally love the emotions portrayed in the song.

Idk why but I guess my mood's a lot better now than before, hahaha seems like positive thinking did worked! I'm glad I did sat down and thought through many things. Well, I should just be that really old me where ignorance is really bliss, and just just believe in people more. I really really needa let go of things in the past that can't seem to haunt me occassionally~ :)

Anw I'm really enjoying life now, though it's really short! Work ended on Wed, hehehe really have to thank Jace for the opportunity to work during my holiday period. Though work is pretty dry and boring, the colleagues' laughter made up for it! :)) Had a really good nights' rest before heading for school on Thurs (just damn paiseh that I couldn't wake up in time for Cityhike!) Camp was enjoyable, hahaha it's still quite funny that Kary's now my junior! And she's still funny as always; she thought not being able to lock the door from inside is normal omg laughdieme. Being in Washee was really nice, having Hoby people around and making new friends! And I realized a fellow senior who lives really near me HAHAHA :) Probably the only bad thing was that I turned really tanned till people couldn't recognize me at work when I went back to help out! (& I remember some said I turned whiter before camp hahaha oh wells!)

School's starting in a few days, but I'm kind of dreading it 'cause I haven't really had enough fun :/ Went for facial (cause my face was really in a bad shape aft camp!) and rebonded my hairrrrrrrrrrr aft 7 years! My mum says it'd be easier for me to wake up and 6 and rush for school without complaining about bad hair day tskkkkkkkk :X I'd be staying over at my aunt's sometimes, no hall already and I guess it's not very possible to bunk in with Kary/Weishan cause their rommmates may mind!

(P.S. I'm quite excited/worried for my Korean classes though hehe, it'll be fun with Janelleeeeeee and the rest!!!)

& I FINALLY MET THE GIRLS TODAY :) They're probably one of the best cliques I've had. Though my moodswings kinda affect my actions/words sometimes I'm alw thankful to have known them in secondary school :))


Here's one for the most Yum Yum OG!! :))



Teehee eggcited to meet Lynn & ZT & Orange later to cook together!!

AND I WNA FINISH WATCHING I HEAR YOUR VOICE  SOON!!!! :(( Don't wna pause for school eh!! Got a new eye candy from the show alr hehehe@ #LeeJongSuk

Finally understood the pains of growing up; sometimes I wished I was still that little girl that everyone doted on without much stress or worries~

Just a random thought that always comes to my mind.. Family members can't be with you forever; your parents will leave someday, siblings will get married and lead their own lives. Friends too, may be too busy with work-life balance, and you can lose them easily when conflict arises. Idk, but the thought of having friends in the working society in the future seems nearly impossible with people telling me about office politics and whatnot. Who can I really trust? Trust is something that is hard to earn and easy to lose, and I really lack the confidence to trust someone; will I lose everyone in the end?

Labels: family, henry, life, trap, work

(Hahaha I do wish I can jump like that, but my legs are super inflexibleeeeeeeeee.)

This is gna be a long post to cover those horrible times of studying! And also to disappear once again cause I'm still as busy as ever! (Which is somehow a good thing!)

Okay, exams were over long ago and I'm super thankful for that cause after all those late night studying either with Weishan/ Beverly & Janelle, I think I really needed a break!

Post exams were definitely awesome!! & I'm really thankful to have such great friends in Uni :))) I've heard many stories about not having true friends in school but at least I have a few that are really nice to hang out with. Mini steamboat session with some of our tutorial mates + stayover at Beverly's hall right after our last paper! :) And my aunts said it was really hilarious cause we used a mini rice cooker instead of induction cooker! Hehehe but it was great catching up with some of those who I didn't see often this semester! :) & Also those random talks and how hard it took us to open 2 bottles of Breezers.

Here's a commemorative photo for steamboat session! :)


Met NASChoir peeps right after tuition the very next day! :) It was a good catchup session heh! :)))



Officially moved out of Hall on Saturday :) It took me hours just to pack my clothes and stuff into many baggages, and I'm shocked by the amount of things we brought to hall!! But I must say I have enjoyed hall life, and I should be thankful for not travelling to and fro home for the past year! :)



And I met Beverly, Janelle and Lixin AGAIN! Hahaha for our 1-OL-and-3-unemployed dinner! :))) Ice cream fondue is ^^!



Lastly, I won't forget to meet herrrrrrrrrrrrr! Hahaha best godsis :))) We were supposed to go shopping for her work clothes but well! We had quite a nice time shopping at H&M though HAHAHA and high tea at nydc! :)


Heh I finally got a job, after deciding not to look for internship!! :) Hahaha and it's quite rush, cause I started work the very next day after my interview! It's a small company, but at I kinda like the atmosphere; colleagues are quite nice! Hahaha :) I'm also learning accounting and proper book-keeping in real situations, and I think I fail at classifying accounts!!! Seems like I've forgotten everything that I've learnt man!!!
Btw my workplace is pretty cool too, it's at Chinatown! (but my office building is so hard to find, I was lost for the 3 days that I went there!!!!) The kopitiams there have really nice food!!! :DDD And it's not expensive so double yay!

I met the OLs again on the first day of work!! Hehehe we had icecream againnnnnnn! :D We'd even went up to the 70th storey of Swissotel, I must say it was really hilarious on our way there!



I've only got 2 months of work left!! Hehehe I'm gna try to learn as much as I can hahaha! But I think I'll get hammered for accidentally deleting a reconciled transaction omg (I'm 80% sure I deleted) I need to quickly learn bank rec again so that I can correct my mistake!! But other than that my workload is not that bad yet!

Ohhh and I've got many good news on Friday (31/5)!! Hahaha I'd gotten my pay slips for both work and tuition, hehehe so happy that I get to shop again!!!
And also cause it was Bridgette's last day, we got a treat at Hotel Re, which was near our office!! Happy girl TTM!! :) But I felt so bad for not saying a proper goodbye cause I was rushing for tuition in the evening!! :/
(Hopefully I can meet her for ice-cream buffet soon!! Hahah she was one of the colleagues that I communicated more often to!)


Hmm, after much deliberation, I checked my results during work. Was super reluctant to at first cause I was really afraid of getting disappointed again., but I'm glad it turned out well! :))) It was better than what I'd expected so I should be glad though it's not exemplary. Hahaha but now I have to try maintaining my second upper @@ I'd better not be complacent with this semester's results! Cause complacency breeds laziness to work harder.
Oh yeah, my tutee passed her Emath exam too!! Though it was a borderline pass, I think any improvement is better than none so it's still awesome. She's super careless, so when she told me her paper she couldn't do quite a fair bit, I was super worried!! But I do hope she can do better for finals! :))))

TO END THIS POST, I HAD BRUNCH AT TIM HO WAN :)) Omg their baked char siew buns are really awesomeeeeeeee, I couldn't stop asking for more!!! Though some food did not meet my expectations, overall it was still quite a nice meal! :)




Okay I'm gna be nice and start packing my clothes. This is probably the 1000th time I'm saying this but I'm alw lazy to carry it out!! And I need to run tmr, super determined to!!!! Weather hasn't been on my side lately :( Postponed my weekly running plans for this week so it isn't gooooood cause my stamina will drop again. Don't wna be the one who looks pale after exercising :(

And I shall be nice and coach my cousin patiently! Hahaha I need to accumulate some good karma lately, cause good news are often accompanied by bad ones which alw come laterrrrrrr!! :/

Need to sort out my data for my phone cause it was finally connected to the laptop today!! Hopefully this is not the last time that it can connect to my lappy cause I need to take out photos to printttttttttttt.

Back to tumblr-ing! Need some pretty pictures to keep myself happy :)