Omgomg I totally hate this feeling okay, like seriously it never fails to haunt me whenever I have assignments to complete and they are of such heavy weightage.
I've submitted my critical thinking assignment alr; I don't think it's extremely good but I really can't think of what else to write. Plus, I didn't want to ask too many people and start acting like a kanchiong spider all over again. Not this one when you need to support assertions and the essay is really time consuming. Imagine getting people to tell you at the eleventh hour that something's wrong with your writeup when others who you've consulted all said it was okay. @__@ But anyway I've submitted it, all I hope is a decent B! :/
My marketing report and ppt slides have also been submitted online! Okay spent the most time on this already for the past week, like on Tuesday we literally spent the whole afternoon in the TV lounge typing out everything, whilst our weekends are spent trying to make them better. Honestly I'm quite scared cause somehow I got a feeling that we don't have enough content, but I can't figure what is wrong esp when I don't even understand marketing. It requires a lot of common sense but somehow I lack in that aspect LOL. But then again I think I'm just expecting too much ah, like after doing up WR and OP back in MJC I think they really taught me to be really picky in the sense that I will want to aim for perfection. But well, I think we can work on Q&A and the oral presentation, like elaborate more on the points not in the slide. Maybe it'll helppppppppp.
But now I think I should just stop feeling insecure and paranoid. It's like 1am soon and I've yet to finish some stuff omg. How am I gonna sleep at this rate?!
Met Germ on Friday with Kary. Hahah he hasn't changed much! :) And we happened to see Alexius (and Ryan) HAHA omg small world!! Had a bit of food and watched some performances, and still thankful that he invited us to his army chalet hehe it's quite nice to catch up a lil' with him ^^ And he offered to cab us homeeeee haha w/e happened to his miser image lol!
Anyway I'm officially homeless!!! Srsly I think I will miss my house eh, afterall I've lived in that environment with all those furniture for more than 10 years. It'd be a lie if I said I don't feel anything for it. Esp if I'm one who can't even part with my stars/shells and my bedddddddv after so many years. Not to mention my 7yo computer which is finally... going to be discarded. Hahaha my mum says I'm finny cause I took pictures of my house before they took down anything, as well as the empty areas after moving everything; but I think those are memories that I hope I can remember as part of my growing years eh. :) But okay anyway, I'm still looking forward to my new deco in December hehehe!
Supposed to be the mug-like-mad week but somehow I looked too chillax, or that's what my roomie is saying! Hahaha probably cause some work was accomplished during the weekend so I can chill, but I've got not much shows to watch, cleared most of them at home also heheh. TV manaic ^^
Anywayz half a semester is gone and omg it's stressful max!! Hahaha had to do stats report and marketing proposal! And I'm glad to have nice groupmates, like really! Both like efficient uh!! ;) And it's even better to know that I got an A for stats report ohyeah!! :) Marketing proposal presentation was okay, but omg I cannot believe how nervous I was cause it's my first presentation in the semester afterall, and it's like OP all over again; lack of practice just made me tongue-tied :/ But anyway we're doing now and the first draft was handed in on Monday, our tutor says it's fine so yay ;) Not so stressed about having editing too much!
Been enjoying life much uh, night cycling on Friday! YAY I CAN CYCLE WITHOUT FALLING! ^^ Hahaha but I almost banged into poles again ahh omg embarrassed much!! And I'm glad I never jammed brake too many times! Anna and I were trying to practise before it started somemore haha, but it's damn funny when either one of us almost met any crisis uh ;) ;) Hehehe but the suay thing is to fall when playing catching with Hoby and Bonkas, like srsly I'm still accident prone afterall -_- And I never knew the cuts were so bad till Saturday omggggg. It's damn scary to even look at it, and so I'm probably going to be on jeans till next week, hopefully there'll be no scars pleasepleaseplease @@
Good food @ Grandma's on Sat after napping in the afternoon hehehe ^^ Sunday was spent watching tv and doing some work! Headed to NEX on Monday to do marking plan, omg ps max for being late :( But yay the plan didn't take as long as we expected! :D But okay the crew at Teadot was horrible omg, never gonna do work there anymoreeeeeee. Din Tai Fung for lunch (xlb!!!) and my favourite eggtarts hehehe!! AND I MET JANA AT TAMP, like really!! :D Shall meet her after her midterms are over, need to catch up uh!!! :D
Supposed to go shopping with parents but I overslept uh!! But yay they still bought me good food and sent me to hall! Shall head home on Friday to do some packing, renovation works in less than 2 weeks' time, can't wait!! Hahaha but I'm not anticipating being homeless. & I need to find a place to store my piano omg!! Think I can kiss goodbye to my violin already; the strings would've rusted and spoilt it :(
Hehehe time to do OB, I hate critical writing omg nightmare once again :( Can't wait to meet the girls for movie later! :) They're accommodating me to wear jeans at Orchard hahaha omg love 'em much! :')
Good mood now cause there's like lotsa nice kpop songs!! BTOB's WOW is definitely worth a listen, and there's lovely remake of All For You (reminded me of Audi omg!!), FT Island's upbeat song, Orange Caramel's new song is quite addictive too! Yay and Mighty Mouth's backkk too, nice songs ftw~
I'M SUPER HAPPY THAT OB'S CREATIVE WRITING EXERCISE IS FINALLY OVERRRR. Omg I rewarded myself with Starbucks after completing it like finally!! Many thanks to Zhekang & Tiffy for attempting to help me correct my language; I'm shall find time to read up more to improveeeeeeee! Xr and Junhao also helped to read our essays since we have different approaches in tackling the issue so yup we tried to give comments as well :) And to Rae, really appreciated the comments that she and WS put in to help me improve on the content as well. You guyz are the bestttttttt :) Although I think my points are still not very novel and insightful, but at least I tried and I believe hard work will be paid off! All I'm hoping is that my prof is lenient enough uh, :D
Oh and my OB group is starting to speak up more, double yay! :)
I may not have the smartest people/guys in my marketing group, but I think they're awesome too! Girl power ftw seriously!! We're done with the ppt slides for the proposal presentation today!! :D It's not very fanciful but a proposal shouldn't be so sophisticated right! Just need to get the script done and do some minor amendments before next week, but still... WE'RE EFFICIENT! And I'm glad there's no need to rush this next week!! :) :)
I've got the smartest, yet laziest stats members HAHA. They just took pictures of the written answers and used it to present in class. BEST. Saved lots of time to do the slides :P Gna meet them tmr to rush stats report, hopefully it'll be productive heeeeee :)
Speaking of stats, Meizheng and I almost died laughing our heads off during lecture cause Hongrui commented if the lecturer's rapping HAHAH. Srsly it's quite true uh, we couldn't really understand his accent and with some hip hop music added I think it can be our school's featured song manzzzz. And to think I went for lecture this time cause they said it was important....
I'm meeting Shubin tmr, LIKE FINALLY OMG. This bestfriend of mine ah...:( NEVER TELL ME SHE'S GOING OVERSEAS TO STUDY!! And I'd always thought she's schooling so it'd be hard to meet :( So I've wasted months not meeting her to pick up small quarrels!!! Shall catch up a lot with her tmr and I must send her off at the airport on Monday! Can't imagine not seeing her for the next 9 months!!! :( :( :(
And I think my schedule damn packed till recess week, AH HOW :(
Awesome song, and I absolutely love this genre of songs. :) It explains my mood perfectly too.
I'm having a whole lot of mixed emotions lately, really angst lately and I'm really apologetic to those who had to suffer with me. My mood swings are really unpredictable and it may/may not be very obvious y'know. I'd sound really sacarstic and mean & I get really senstive, like how I'll just guess that everything is about me. Just like how OB assignment just make me realise that I'm really selfish sometimes. This assignment is due on Friday and it's really getting on my nerves :(
A lil bit of issues everywhere just make things a whole lot worse sometimes.
Btw went to Lynn's house to try vegetarian food with zt yesterday! Super thankful for her invitation!!! Her mum cooks really well and I ate some of those food that my stomach usually cannot take hehehe :D And made friends with two of her other guests! I guess trying vegetarian food is not too bad an alternativeeeeee :)
Whooooo Idk to say if I should be glad that I'm studying now instead of working.
Well, adults say studying is definitely way better than being in a working environment, but studying is really driving me crazy to some extent! (& I'm wondering how am I gonna survive next timeeeeee) Probably the only thing that keeps me going is the company of friends in hall/school. I do get stressed often but talking to people I'm comfortable with definitely made my day, be it some random talk or comments.
Hahaha okay I still dk why I can smile so much that people get the impression that I'm coping well with school tskkkkkkk.
Speaking of which OB is really getting on my nerves when I can't think out of the box and the 1000 word essay on creative thinking is due next fridayyy. And this is coupled with assignments and projects seriouslyyyyy :( There's a marketing proposal due soon and the tutor didn't say anything; there's weekly tutorials that I'm doing (&sometimes I still don't get the concepts!) I'm still trying to squeeze in time for notes and... TV time. Been trying to watch recent RM episodes but likka faillllll :(
Oh yes my marketing tutor really reminds me of the NTU interview I had months ago, like omg it's likka nightmare over again 'cause he'll pose a question and whoever who answers that will definitely get rebutted and it'll seem like a debate during tutorials. I don't even have the courage to consult him srsly cause I don't wanna be shot and yes I don't know my concepts. He'd probably play around with me instead arghz. I get his intentions but it's not what I would imagine for a tutorial.
Anw I'm done with groupings for various projects and I do hope I can survive with my groupings! Hahaha my OB group is a lil' too quiet and Idk how to make people speak up. I've got pretty nice marketing group (girl power ftw okayyyz) and a noisy/funny stats study group! :)
" I developed inferior complexity in JC and I think it just got worse in Uni. :( " Have to agree with this mannnz.
YAY I'M GNA MEET CHELS, JOYCE AND KARY FOR DINNER LATER!! :) Feel bad for skipping rally & not support fellow OG mates, but I think I need a break outta school.
Chronology of events for the past monthhhhhhhhh:
NBS BASH
NBS DND
MOLTRES :)
M CLAN :)
HALL 2 DND
HOBY W MIB! (we didnt really follow theme uh hahaha)
I'm not exactly one, but I guess I'm close to one!
School's started and tbh I think I'm not coping very well! I hardly participate in class, take damn long to finish my tutorials and I barely have time to read up on anything. And all these can be explained by my own behaviour srsly. I'm close to a perfectionist; I am scared to make mistakes and I always aim to complete everything without making much mistakes. I don't wanna be judged by others if I ever make mistakes, but all these done at the expense of my time (&sometimes I still can't finish my tutorials -_-). And actually I can't really seem to think of how to go about doing my tutorials for some modules cause I'm really really scared that I may be called and if I answer wrongly I'd be judged at my capability and knowledge. I'm really really trying to avoid it argh, though I know it's not good!! I'm actually putting my class participations at risks too, since the professors usually says it's okay to give wrong answer cause we can discuss it and at least I'll still be taking part in class. I think I'll be stuck at this point for a really really long time! And I've actually find Marketing and OB quite challenging for me, cause they are more practical-based, like you need to do case studies to truly understand instead of just spamming whatever theories that you've been taught. And I think application of knowledge is really really difficult for me. There's lotsa writing for OB as well!!!! :(:(:(:(
I'm ejoying hall life but I think I'll have trouble with schoolwork-hall balance!! Supper HTHT sessions almost everyday!! I went for quite a number of trials, and I signed up for dance and softball. Dk if I'll regret not cause both dance and softball require quite a bit of training and skills uh!! Also signed up for IIC(investment club) which I think it'll be useful! Idk if I should try welfare club, sounds good cause of the activities as well as points that I'll need in order to get min points for staying in hall next year!! Applied for hall comms but I think it's gone alreadyyyyyyyyyyyy. But I'm scared it'll be too taxing! :( Esp when I'm so unsure with what I'm studying!! Lagging much.
Btw, I love HTHT sessions but knowing too much kills, if you know what I mean :(
Got so many things to update about but no time. Tutorial tmr aiyo. I hate stats when it's IT based!
LOVE THIS SONG :D Prob even more than how much I enjoy listening to Beautiful night!
I have OB seminar and two other lects on monday and they're consecutive!! As in no breaks at all! My monday will be damn tiring leh omg!! And I cant seem to change my lect timings; changing OB timeslot will make it a 5day week!!!
I've decided to go for both DnDs in the end and omgzxz the costs will srsly kill me. REALLY TIME TO FIND TUITION TO SUPPLEMENT MY LIFESTYLE!!!
I'm running outta formal dresses for such events :(
I'm gna be homesick really soon!!! Trying to spend as much time w family!!
YAY WILLIAM AKA A SENIOR MAY HAVE BOOKS TO SELL ME. Praying rly hard he has them!!!!
JUST WENT SHOPPING TODAY OMG I THINK I SPENT TOO MUCH AGAIN, INCLUDING THE STUFF TO BRING TO HALL!! The small fan I bought don't seem to help much in dealing the heat in the room I think, how!!!!!
Woohoo I survived hall camp! Glad to say that I didn't miss much; I'd only went home one morning to deposit stuff and skipped most of Flavours(aka soysauce night omg smelly maxxxxxxxx) for NBS bash!
Camp was quite fun overall, though the first few days was quite bad that it made it seem really cmiii, but I'm glad I stayed uh! Just a pity that I didn't manage to slip off to meet Moltres people for supperz, surprise and the send-off cause I'm seriously not good at making excuses to run away lollllllll. But I still heart Moltres k! :)
Oh yes I'm super glad hall camp wasn't as tiring as nbs one; more sleep and yes less couple interaction kinda stuff!! Hehehe I'm like super thankful for that cause I'm never comfortable with physical contact lol!
For SP the guys didn't get it as bad as the nbs foc one did hahah! And SP night was held at RP for everybody instead-2 couples per table! Not bad uh but was quite awkward and I was whatsapping Lynn who's sitting beside me lol! Just super tired on the last day when they had initiation games!! Omg caterpillar + losta running + leopard crawling on mud + no sleep (blindfolded the whole night) = cui max! But I'm glad I went through it though. Camps always remind me that I need to exerciseeeee moreeeeeeee. #sadfact
Oh we won the MOST AYE AYE AWARD! GO HOBYYYY!
Some interesting facts for Camp Aye Aye!
- I think I feel much more comfortable with Hoby girls. And I'm really serious! I guess skipping precamp for NBS FOC really made it harder for me to blend in with people in Moltres, but well overall I'm still glad to be part of Moltres! Just that I find it much easier to talk to people in Hoby Idk why hahah! Glad to have made good friends with Lynn, Kathy, Natalia, Lecia, Zhekang, Wanling, Melody! Omgz heart them much!
- I really find Zhekang super brave & Melody really cute! I'm very very sure I'll never be able to shave my hair, so yupp, really respect Zhekang!! And Melody's accent is really very funny in a cute way!
- Idk why but I love talking to a few seniors!! For girls it's like Nicole, Yilin and Mainbao!! It's like super easy to talk to them omg and seems that we have things in common to talk about!! Won't forget how I'll just naturally walk beside one of them to talk during camp and talk about random stuff! :) For the guys, Lynn & I talked to Darren and Zongting quite often ah!! Hahaha for Darren cause he alw disturb us one! & It took us so long for him to reveal his traffic light colour! And Zongting he's really too blur alr lolol but he's someone who talks to people easily so yup! But generally all seniors are friendly and I likeeeee :)
- I've got really funny seniors like Mark(I think everyone knows him alr!) And Kuek who said he was half Russian on the first night of camp and got us all confused HAHAHA.
- Hoby's got 3 people who look really alike!! Victor, Xurong and Terence(aka fake freshie!) Omg I really got mixed up with them on the second day when Terence came in! Like seriously I was trying not to call the wrong names! For seniors I think Boon Hoe and Jerico look alike Idk why. Really 傻傻分不清楚!!
- I love HTHT sessions yay! :)
Anw I feel bad skipping today's Food Trail cause I oversleptttttttt. I think I switched the alarm off myself sersiously, must have been too tired hahah!! Okay but I'll try to make it for cycling trip on Saturday! :)
Oh I just remembered I saw Aaron yesterday!! My violin senior in primary school!! And the best thing is, he actually recognised me first! It took me v v v v long to realised I actually knew him before during NBS Welcome Ceremony yesterday! What are the chances that we're in the same marketing group uh!! :)
And dang now I need help with school stuff cause I know nothing about it!! I mean like Idk what books I'll need, the add/drop thing and many many moreeeee. Think it's really time for me to read up!! Cause I never knew I had to take up electives with my current AU points! #dumbgirlmax :(
OHYES I ALSO DK WHETHER TO TAKE UP SPORTS NOT!! Partly cause Hall 2's a sports hall, and cause I want to try something new. WS's gna try netball I think, and I'm still indecisive!!
I'm also voice-less todayyyyyy. :( Just glad I didn't drink much yesterday and avoided hangover!
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Insecurities
Monday, 15 October 2012
Omgomg I totally hate this feeling okay, like seriously it never fails to haunt me whenever I have assignments to complete and they are of such heavy weightage.
I've submitted my critical thinking assignment alr; I don't think it's extremely good but I really can't think of what else to write. Plus, I didn't want to ask too many people and start acting like a kanchiong spider all over again. Not this one when you need to support assertions and the essay is really time consuming. Imagine getting people to tell you at the eleventh hour that something's wrong with your writeup when others who you've consulted all said it was okay. @__@ But anyway I've submitted it, all I hope is a decent B! :/
My marketing report and ppt slides have also been submitted online! Okay spent the most time on this already for the past week, like on Tuesday we literally spent the whole afternoon in the TV lounge typing out everything, whilst our weekends are spent trying to make them better. Honestly I'm quite scared cause somehow I got a feeling that we don't have enough content, but I can't figure what is wrong esp when I don't even understand marketing. It requires a lot of common sense but somehow I lack in that aspect LOL. But then again I think I'm just expecting too much ah, like after doing up WR and OP back in MJC I think they really taught me to be really picky in the sense that I will want to aim for perfection. But well, I think we can work on Q&A and the oral presentation, like elaborate more on the points not in the slide. Maybe it'll helppppppppp.
But now I think I should just stop feeling insecure and paranoid. It's like 1am soon and I've yet to finish some stuff omg. How am I gonna sleep at this rate?!
Met Germ on Friday with Kary. Hahah he hasn't changed much! :) And we happened to see Alexius (and Ryan) HAHA omg small world!! Had a bit of food and watched some performances, and still thankful that he invited us to his army chalet hehe it's quite nice to catch up a lil' with him ^^ And he offered to cab us homeeeee haha w/e happened to his miser image lol!
Anyway I'm officially homeless!!! Srsly I think I will miss my house eh, afterall I've lived in that environment with all those furniture for more than 10 years. It'd be a lie if I said I don't feel anything for it. Esp if I'm one who can't even part with my stars/shells and my bedddddddv after so many years. Not to mention my 7yo computer which is finally... going to be discarded. Hahaha my mum says I'm finny cause I took pictures of my house before they took down anything, as well as the empty areas after moving everything; but I think those are memories that I hope I can remember as part of my growing years eh. :) But okay anyway, I'm still looking forward to my new deco in December hehehe!
Supposed to be the mug-like-mad week but somehow I looked too chillax, or that's what my roomie is saying! Hahaha probably cause some work was accomplished during the weekend so I can chill, but I've got not much shows to watch, cleared most of them at home also heheh. TV manaic ^^
Anywayz half a semester is gone and omg it's stressful max!! Hahaha had to do stats report and marketing proposal! And I'm glad to have nice groupmates, like really! Both like efficient uh!! ;) And it's even better to know that I got an A for stats report ohyeah!! :) Marketing proposal presentation was okay, but omg I cannot believe how nervous I was cause it's my first presentation in the semester afterall, and it's like OP all over again; lack of practice just made me tongue-tied :/ But anyway we're doing now and the first draft was handed in on Monday, our tutor says it's fine so yay ;) Not so stressed about having editing too much!
Been enjoying life much uh, night cycling on Friday! YAY I CAN CYCLE WITHOUT FALLING! ^^ Hahaha but I almost banged into poles again ahh omg embarrassed much!! And I'm glad I never jammed brake too many times! Anna and I were trying to practise before it started somemore haha, but it's damn funny when either one of us almost met any crisis uh ;) ;) Hehehe but the suay thing is to fall when playing catching with Hoby and Bonkas, like srsly I'm still accident prone afterall -_- And I never knew the cuts were so bad till Saturday omggggg. It's damn scary to even look at it, and so I'm probably going to be on jeans till next week, hopefully there'll be no scars pleasepleaseplease @@
Good food @ Grandma's on Sat after napping in the afternoon hehehe ^^ Sunday was spent watching tv and doing some work! Headed to NEX on Monday to do marking plan, omg ps max for being late :( But yay the plan didn't take as long as we expected! :D But okay the crew at Teadot was horrible omg, never gonna do work there anymoreeeeeee. Din Tai Fung for lunch (xlb!!!) and my favourite eggtarts hehehe!! AND I MET JANA AT TAMP, like really!! :D Shall meet her after her midterms are over, need to catch up uh!!! :D
Supposed to go shopping with parents but I overslept uh!! But yay they still bought me good food and sent me to hall! Shall head home on Friday to do some packing, renovation works in less than 2 weeks' time, can't wait!! Hahaha but I'm not anticipating being homeless. & I need to find a place to store my piano omg!! Think I can kiss goodbye to my violin already; the strings would've rusted and spoilt it :(
Hehehe time to do OB, I hate critical writing omg nightmare once again :( Can't wait to meet the girls for movie later! :) They're accommodating me to wear jeans at Orchard hahaha omg love 'em much! :')
Good mood now cause there's like lotsa nice kpop songs!! BTOB's WOW is definitely worth a listen, and there's lovely remake of All For You (reminded me of Audi omg!!), FT Island's upbeat song, Orange Caramel's new song is quite addictive too! Yay and Mighty Mouth's backkk too, nice songs ftw~
I'M SUPER HAPPY THAT OB'S CREATIVE WRITING EXERCISE IS FINALLY OVERRRR. Omg I rewarded myself with Starbucks after completing it like finally!! Many thanks to Zhekang & Tiffy for attempting to help me correct my language; I'm shall find time to read up more to improveeeeeeee! Xr and Junhao also helped to read our essays since we have different approaches in tackling the issue so yup we tried to give comments as well :) And to Rae, really appreciated the comments that she and WS put in to help me improve on the content as well. You guyz are the bestttttttt :) Although I think my points are still not very novel and insightful, but at least I tried and I believe hard work will be paid off! All I'm hoping is that my prof is lenient enough uh, :D
Oh and my OB group is starting to speak up more, double yay! :)
I may not have the smartest people/guys in my marketing group, but I think they're awesome too! Girl power ftw seriously!! We're done with the ppt slides for the proposal presentation today!! :D It's not very fanciful but a proposal shouldn't be so sophisticated right! Just need to get the script done and do some minor amendments before next week, but still... WE'RE EFFICIENT! And I'm glad there's no need to rush this next week!! :) :)
I've got the smartest, yet laziest stats members HAHA. They just took pictures of the written answers and used it to present in class. BEST. Saved lots of time to do the slides :P Gna meet them tmr to rush stats report, hopefully it'll be productive heeeeee :)
Speaking of stats, Meizheng and I almost died laughing our heads off during lecture cause Hongrui commented if the lecturer's rapping HAHAH. Srsly it's quite true uh, we couldn't really understand his accent and with some hip hop music added I think it can be our school's featured song manzzzz. And to think I went for lecture this time cause they said it was important....
I'm meeting Shubin tmr, LIKE FINALLY OMG. This bestfriend of mine ah...:( NEVER TELL ME SHE'S GOING OVERSEAS TO STUDY!! And I'd always thought she's schooling so it'd be hard to meet :( So I've wasted months not meeting her to pick up small quarrels!!! Shall catch up a lot with her tmr and I must send her off at the airport on Monday! Can't imagine not seeing her for the next 9 months!!! :( :( :(
And I think my schedule damn packed till recess week, AH HOW :(
Awesome song, and I absolutely love this genre of songs. :) It explains my mood perfectly too.
I'm having a whole lot of mixed emotions lately, really angst lately and I'm really apologetic to those who had to suffer with me. My mood swings are really unpredictable and it may/may not be very obvious y'know. I'd sound really sacarstic and mean & I get really senstive, like how I'll just guess that everything is about me. Just like how OB assignment just make me realise that I'm really selfish sometimes. This assignment is due on Friday and it's really getting on my nerves :(
A lil bit of issues everywhere just make things a whole lot worse sometimes.
Btw went to Lynn's house to try vegetarian food with zt yesterday! Super thankful for her invitation!!! Her mum cooks really well and I ate some of those food that my stomach usually cannot take hehehe :D And made friends with two of her other guests! I guess trying vegetarian food is not too bad an alternativeeeeee :)
Whooooo Idk to say if I should be glad that I'm studying now instead of working.
Well, adults say studying is definitely way better than being in a working environment, but studying is really driving me crazy to some extent! (& I'm wondering how am I gonna survive next timeeeeee) Probably the only thing that keeps me going is the company of friends in hall/school. I do get stressed often but talking to people I'm comfortable with definitely made my day, be it some random talk or comments.
Hahaha okay I still dk why I can smile so much that people get the impression that I'm coping well with school tskkkkkkk.
Speaking of which OB is really getting on my nerves when I can't think out of the box and the 1000 word essay on creative thinking is due next fridayyy. And this is coupled with assignments and projects seriouslyyyyy :( There's a marketing proposal due soon and the tutor didn't say anything; there's weekly tutorials that I'm doing (&sometimes I still don't get the concepts!) I'm still trying to squeeze in time for notes and... TV time. Been trying to watch recent RM episodes but likka faillllll :(
Oh yes my marketing tutor really reminds me of the NTU interview I had months ago, like omg it's likka nightmare over again 'cause he'll pose a question and whoever who answers that will definitely get rebutted and it'll seem like a debate during tutorials. I don't even have the courage to consult him srsly cause I don't wanna be shot and yes I don't know my concepts. He'd probably play around with me instead arghz. I get his intentions but it's not what I would imagine for a tutorial.
Anw I'm done with groupings for various projects and I do hope I can survive with my groupings! Hahaha my OB group is a lil' too quiet and Idk how to make people speak up. I've got pretty nice marketing group (girl power ftw okayyyz) and a noisy/funny stats study group! :)
" I developed inferior complexity in JC and I think it just got worse in Uni. :( " Have to agree with this mannnz.
YAY I'M GNA MEET CHELS, JOYCE AND KARY FOR DINNER LATER!! :) Feel bad for skipping rally & not support fellow OG mates, but I think I need a break outta school.
Chronology of events for the past monthhhhhhhhh:
NBS BASH
NBS DND
MOLTRES :)
M CLAN :)
HALL 2 DND
HOBY W MIB! (we didnt really follow theme uh hahaha)
I'm not exactly one, but I guess I'm close to one!
School's started and tbh I think I'm not coping very well! I hardly participate in class, take damn long to finish my tutorials and I barely have time to read up on anything. And all these can be explained by my own behaviour srsly. I'm close to a perfectionist; I am scared to make mistakes and I always aim to complete everything without making much mistakes. I don't wanna be judged by others if I ever make mistakes, but all these done at the expense of my time (&sometimes I still can't finish my tutorials -_-). And actually I can't really seem to think of how to go about doing my tutorials for some modules cause I'm really really scared that I may be called and if I answer wrongly I'd be judged at my capability and knowledge. I'm really really trying to avoid it argh, though I know it's not good!! I'm actually putting my class participations at risks too, since the professors usually says it's okay to give wrong answer cause we can discuss it and at least I'll still be taking part in class. I think I'll be stuck at this point for a really really long time! And I've actually find Marketing and OB quite challenging for me, cause they are more practical-based, like you need to do case studies to truly understand instead of just spamming whatever theories that you've been taught. And I think application of knowledge is really really difficult for me. There's lotsa writing for OB as well!!!! :(:(:(:(
I'm ejoying hall life but I think I'll have trouble with schoolwork-hall balance!! Supper HTHT sessions almost everyday!! I went for quite a number of trials, and I signed up for dance and softball. Dk if I'll regret not cause both dance and softball require quite a bit of training and skills uh!! Also signed up for IIC(investment club) which I think it'll be useful! Idk if I should try welfare club, sounds good cause of the activities as well as points that I'll need in order to get min points for staying in hall next year!! Applied for hall comms but I think it's gone alreadyyyyyyyyyyyy. But I'm scared it'll be too taxing! :( Esp when I'm so unsure with what I'm studying!! Lagging much.
Btw, I love HTHT sessions but knowing too much kills, if you know what I mean :(
Got so many things to update about but no time. Tutorial tmr aiyo. I hate stats when it's IT based!
LOVE THIS SONG :D Prob even more than how much I enjoy listening to Beautiful night!
I have OB seminar and two other lects on monday and they're consecutive!! As in no breaks at all! My monday will be damn tiring leh omg!! And I cant seem to change my lect timings; changing OB timeslot will make it a 5day week!!!
I've decided to go for both DnDs in the end and omgzxz the costs will srsly kill me. REALLY TIME TO FIND TUITION TO SUPPLEMENT MY LIFESTYLE!!!
I'm running outta formal dresses for such events :(
I'm gna be homesick really soon!!! Trying to spend as much time w family!!
YAY WILLIAM AKA A SENIOR MAY HAVE BOOKS TO SELL ME. Praying rly hard he has them!!!!
JUST WENT SHOPPING TODAY OMG I THINK I SPENT TOO MUCH AGAIN, INCLUDING THE STUFF TO BRING TO HALL!! The small fan I bought don't seem to help much in dealing the heat in the room I think, how!!!!!
Woohoo I survived hall camp! Glad to say that I didn't miss much; I'd only went home one morning to deposit stuff and skipped most of Flavours(aka soysauce night omg smelly maxxxxxxxx) for NBS bash!
Camp was quite fun overall, though the first few days was quite bad that it made it seem really cmiii, but I'm glad I stayed uh! Just a pity that I didn't manage to slip off to meet Moltres people for supperz, surprise and the send-off cause I'm seriously not good at making excuses to run away lollllllll. But I still heart Moltres k! :)
Oh yes I'm super glad hall camp wasn't as tiring as nbs one; more sleep and yes less couple interaction kinda stuff!! Hehehe I'm like super thankful for that cause I'm never comfortable with physical contact lol!
For SP the guys didn't get it as bad as the nbs foc one did hahah! And SP night was held at RP for everybody instead-2 couples per table! Not bad uh but was quite awkward and I was whatsapping Lynn who's sitting beside me lol! Just super tired on the last day when they had initiation games!! Omg caterpillar + losta running + leopard crawling on mud + no sleep (blindfolded the whole night) = cui max! But I'm glad I went through it though. Camps always remind me that I need to exerciseeeee moreeeeeeee. #sadfact
Oh we won the MOST AYE AYE AWARD! GO HOBYYYY!
Some interesting facts for Camp Aye Aye!
- I think I feel much more comfortable with Hoby girls. And I'm really serious! I guess skipping precamp for NBS FOC really made it harder for me to blend in with people in Moltres, but well overall I'm still glad to be part of Moltres! Just that I find it much easier to talk to people in Hoby Idk why hahah! Glad to have made good friends with Lynn, Kathy, Natalia, Lecia, Zhekang, Wanling, Melody! Omgz heart them much!
- I really find Zhekang super brave & Melody really cute! I'm very very sure I'll never be able to shave my hair, so yupp, really respect Zhekang!! And Melody's accent is really very funny in a cute way!
- Idk why but I love talking to a few seniors!! For girls it's like Nicole, Yilin and Mainbao!! It's like super easy to talk to them omg and seems that we have things in common to talk about!! Won't forget how I'll just naturally walk beside one of them to talk during camp and talk about random stuff! :) For the guys, Lynn & I talked to Darren and Zongting quite often ah!! Hahaha for Darren cause he alw disturb us one! & It took us so long for him to reveal his traffic light colour! And Zongting he's really too blur alr lolol but he's someone who talks to people easily so yup! But generally all seniors are friendly and I likeeeee :)
- I've got really funny seniors like Mark(I think everyone knows him alr!) And Kuek who said he was half Russian on the first night of camp and got us all confused HAHAHA.
- Hoby's got 3 people who look really alike!! Victor, Xurong and Terence(aka fake freshie!) Omg I really got mixed up with them on the second day when Terence came in! Like seriously I was trying not to call the wrong names! For seniors I think Boon Hoe and Jerico look alike Idk why. Really 傻傻分不清楚!!
- I love HTHT sessions yay! :)
Anw I feel bad skipping today's Food Trail cause I oversleptttttttt. I think I switched the alarm off myself sersiously, must have been too tired hahah!! Okay but I'll try to make it for cycling trip on Saturday! :)
Oh I just remembered I saw Aaron yesterday!! My violin senior in primary school!! And the best thing is, he actually recognised me first! It took me v v v v long to realised I actually knew him before during NBS Welcome Ceremony yesterday! What are the chances that we're in the same marketing group uh!! :)
And dang now I need help with school stuff cause I know nothing about it!! I mean like Idk what books I'll need, the add/drop thing and many many moreeeee. Think it's really time for me to read up!! Cause I never knew I had to take up electives with my current AU points! #dumbgirlmax :(
OHYES I ALSO DK WHETHER TO TAKE UP SPORTS NOT!! Partly cause Hall 2's a sports hall, and cause I want to try something new. WS's gna try netball I think, and I'm still indecisive!!
I'm also voice-less todayyyyyy. :( Just glad I didn't drink much yesterday and avoided hangover!
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