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“I guess it's going to have to hurt, I guess I'm going to have to cry, And let go of some things I've loved to get to the other side. I guess it's going to break me down, Like falling when you try to fly, Sad but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life starts with goodbye” 
― Carrie Underwood 

Teehee, this used to be my favourite song :) Totally love the emotions portrayed in the song.

Idk why but I guess my mood's a lot better now than before, hahaha seems like positive thinking did worked! I'm glad I did sat down and thought through many things. Well, I should just be that really old me where ignorance is really bliss, and just just believe in people more. I really really needa let go of things in the past that can't seem to haunt me occassionally~ :)

Anw I'm really enjoying life now, though it's really short! Work ended on Wed, hehehe really have to thank Jace for the opportunity to work during my holiday period. Though work is pretty dry and boring, the colleagues' laughter made up for it! :)) Had a really good nights' rest before heading for school on Thurs (just damn paiseh that I couldn't wake up in time for Cityhike!) Camp was enjoyable, hahaha it's still quite funny that Kary's now my junior! And she's still funny as always; she thought not being able to lock the door from inside is normal omg laughdieme. Being in Washee was really nice, having Hoby people around and making new friends! And I realized a fellow senior who lives really near me HAHAHA :) Probably the only bad thing was that I turned really tanned till people couldn't recognize me at work when I went back to help out! (& I remember some said I turned whiter before camp hahaha oh wells!)

School's starting in a few days, but I'm kind of dreading it 'cause I haven't really had enough fun :/ Went for facial (cause my face was really in a bad shape aft camp!) and rebonded my hairrrrrrrrrrr aft 7 years! My mum says it'd be easier for me to wake up and 6 and rush for school without complaining about bad hair day tskkkkkkkk :X I'd be staying over at my aunt's sometimes, no hall already and I guess it's not very possible to bunk in with Kary/Weishan cause their rommmates may mind!

(P.S. I'm quite excited/worried for my Korean classes though hehe, it'll be fun with Janelleeeeeee and the rest!!!)

& I FINALLY MET THE GIRLS TODAY :) They're probably one of the best cliques I've had. Though my moodswings kinda affect my actions/words sometimes I'm alw thankful to have known them in secondary school :))


Here's one for the most Yum Yum OG!! :))



Teehee eggcited to meet Lynn & ZT & Orange later to cook together!!

AND I WNA FINISH WATCHING I HEAR YOUR VOICE  SOON!!!! :(( Don't wna pause for school eh!! Got a new eye candy from the show alr hehehe@ #LeeJongSuk

Finally understood the pains of growing up; sometimes I wished I was still that little girl that everyone doted on without much stress or worries~

Just a random thought that always comes to my mind.. Family members can't be with you forever; your parents will leave someday, siblings will get married and lead their own lives. Friends too, may be too busy with work-life balance, and you can lose them easily when conflict arises. Idk, but the thought of having friends in the working society in the future seems nearly impossible with people telling me about office politics and whatnot. Who can I really trust? Trust is something that is hard to earn and easy to lose, and I really lack the confidence to trust someone; will I lose everyone in the end?

Labels: family, henry, life, trap, work

(Hahaha I do wish I can jump like that, but my legs are super inflexibleeeeeeeeee.)

This is gna be a long post to cover those horrible times of studying! And also to disappear once again cause I'm still as busy as ever! (Which is somehow a good thing!)

Okay, exams were over long ago and I'm super thankful for that cause after all those late night studying either with Weishan/ Beverly & Janelle, I think I really needed a break!

Post exams were definitely awesome!! & I'm really thankful to have such great friends in Uni :))) I've heard many stories about not having true friends in school but at least I have a few that are really nice to hang out with. Mini steamboat session with some of our tutorial mates + stayover at Beverly's hall right after our last paper! :) And my aunts said it was really hilarious cause we used a mini rice cooker instead of induction cooker! Hehehe but it was great catching up with some of those who I didn't see often this semester! :) & Also those random talks and how hard it took us to open 2 bottles of Breezers.

Here's a commemorative photo for steamboat session! :)


Met NASChoir peeps right after tuition the very next day! :) It was a good catchup session heh! :)))



Officially moved out of Hall on Saturday :) It took me hours just to pack my clothes and stuff into many baggages, and I'm shocked by the amount of things we brought to hall!! But I must say I have enjoyed hall life, and I should be thankful for not travelling to and fro home for the past year! :)



And I met Beverly, Janelle and Lixin AGAIN! Hahaha for our 1-OL-and-3-unemployed dinner! :))) Ice cream fondue is ^^!



Lastly, I won't forget to meet herrrrrrrrrrrrr! Hahaha best godsis :))) We were supposed to go shopping for her work clothes but well! We had quite a nice time shopping at H&M though HAHAHA and high tea at nydc! :)


Heh I finally got a job, after deciding not to look for internship!! :) Hahaha and it's quite rush, cause I started work the very next day after my interview! It's a small company, but at I kinda like the atmosphere; colleagues are quite nice! Hahaha :) I'm also learning accounting and proper book-keeping in real situations, and I think I fail at classifying accounts!!! Seems like I've forgotten everything that I've learnt man!!!
Btw my workplace is pretty cool too, it's at Chinatown! (but my office building is so hard to find, I was lost for the 3 days that I went there!!!!) The kopitiams there have really nice food!!! :DDD And it's not expensive so double yay!

I met the OLs again on the first day of work!! Hehehe we had icecream againnnnnnn! :D We'd even went up to the 70th storey of Swissotel, I must say it was really hilarious on our way there!



I've only got 2 months of work left!! Hehehe I'm gna try to learn as much as I can hahaha! But I think I'll get hammered for accidentally deleting a reconciled transaction omg (I'm 80% sure I deleted) I need to quickly learn bank rec again so that I can correct my mistake!! But other than that my workload is not that bad yet!

Ohhh and I've got many good news on Friday (31/5)!! Hahaha I'd gotten my pay slips for both work and tuition, hehehe so happy that I get to shop again!!!
And also cause it was Bridgette's last day, we got a treat at Hotel Re, which was near our office!! Happy girl TTM!! :) But I felt so bad for not saying a proper goodbye cause I was rushing for tuition in the evening!! :/
(Hopefully I can meet her for ice-cream buffet soon!! Hahah she was one of the colleagues that I communicated more often to!)


Hmm, after much deliberation, I checked my results during work. Was super reluctant to at first cause I was really afraid of getting disappointed again., but I'm glad it turned out well! :))) It was better than what I'd expected so I should be glad though it's not exemplary. Hahaha but now I have to try maintaining my second upper @@ I'd better not be complacent with this semester's results! Cause complacency breeds laziness to work harder.
Oh yeah, my tutee passed her Emath exam too!! Though it was a borderline pass, I think any improvement is better than none so it's still awesome. She's super careless, so when she told me her paper she couldn't do quite a fair bit, I was super worried!! But I do hope she can do better for finals! :))))

TO END THIS POST, I HAD BRUNCH AT TIM HO WAN :)) Omg their baked char siew buns are really awesomeeeeeeee, I couldn't stop asking for more!!! Though some food did not meet my expectations, overall it was still quite a nice meal! :)




Okay I'm gna be nice and start packing my clothes. This is probably the 1000th time I'm saying this but I'm alw lazy to carry it out!! And I need to run tmr, super determined to!!!! Weather hasn't been on my side lately :( Postponed my weekly running plans for this week so it isn't gooooood cause my stamina will drop again. Don't wna be the one who looks pale after exercising :(

And I shall be nice and coach my cousin patiently! Hahaha I need to accumulate some good karma lately, cause good news are often accompanied by bad ones which alw come laterrrrrrr!! :/

Need to sort out my data for my phone cause it was finally connected to the laptop today!! Hopefully this is not the last time that it can connect to my lappy cause I need to take out photos to printttttttttttt.

Back to tumblr-ing! Need some pretty pictures to keep myself happy :)

Hehehe FM's finally over!! There's quite a few careless mistakes cause of my flu, but I'm more glad than ever that it wasn't too bad. I mean what more can you expect taking exam with a terrible flu other than trying to finish the paper with a unclear mindset? :D And I am pretty confident of the paper haha at least a B+ I hopeeeeee.

Think I need to sleep in more before accounting cause my brain isnt workinggggggggg :(

Crazy weeks ahead with FM (critique + tutorial presentation), IT report and comm fund writing assessment & OA2. I'm gna try survive this man. Gna sleep less alr T_T (I think 50% of my weekends was spent in repaying my sleep debt!!)

Anticipating 8th Mayyyyyyyyyyy! But okay the process to get to that stage is gna be like hell. Argh. Not to mention I'm still trying to source for other possible jobs for the break! Hahahaha.

Sigh and I've still got so many stuff to decide on. Ahhhhhhhhh Idk how to talk about it zzz.

 All the best to uni kids!!! :)

Don't like this semester at all. Really. Sigh the stress this semester was much worse as compared to the previous one. And additional stress by others and myself seem to makes things a whole lot worse! I'm hoping to survive this semester, 6 more weeks to go!! I'm gna pull through this and get my well deserved break!!

Heh I'm so busy nowadays that I'm forgetting to do so many things, like seriously. Making funny mistakes and screwing things up seem like a norm now sighhhhh. Idk to laugh at them or feel dumb/sad that I can't complete my tasks properly.

On a brighter side, I'm deviating away slightly from school work lately. Gna do voluntary work this weekend + hopefully more sessions for me to destresssssssssss. And yes, more gym/swimming sessions with Yanping so that I'm not all cooped up at home with work. There's so much to be seen in the outside world and studying really isn't everything (though I have to agree it's so impt in Singapore...)

Oh well I'll just head back to studying. Life will be better after next week, after mid-terms end!!

Currently craving for cheesecake :S

That I need to collect my SGC soon, if not I'll be collecting with the junior batch and I doubt they will keep that long!!! Shall collect this Friday; it's a must!!

Semester 2 has started and oh no I'm not really enjoying it!! It seems like it's gna be a hell lot worse than last semester, and I'm definitely not prepared for it yet!!! I'm still sleeping way too much, watching too many shows and my brain just doesn't want to start working omggggggg.

And I think I'm stressing myself out a little, there's Contract Bridge training often this week so my nights are spent on that, andand I've yet to research about intern & exchange oppotunities!! It's like additional stress to myself cause most people that I know of are all researching about it!!! Guess I'm still super blur about what's going on!! My tutorial mates are considering going Netherlands or HK, they've researched much and it does sound very interesting!!! I wna go too!! But looking at my grades it seems almost impossible and money is also an issue! Don't think it'll be nice to ask for loan again esp since my parents just took up renovation loan not too long ago!! More loans will only give them greater pressure to work so hard :( And I'll really feel bad!!! It's like they are putting in so much effort to make our lives better and there's nothing we can do yet to repay them!!!

As for internships, Idk when to sign up and stuff!! Cause it's like something really new to me and Idk how to ask people as usual!! Like I really feel bad to ask about school stuff cause it'll just seem that we're friends for  these things and it's not v good uh!! I'm really hoping to get internship during the hols!! Like at least I'll earn money and gain some experience to know how's life gna be like next time!! :/

Hahaha I'm quite scared to classes as well, the class participation criteria is crazyyyyyyyyyy :( I think I'll die for Biz law cause I really dk what they want for answering questions and participation marks is 30% of total grade :( FM seminar is crazy as well, I think I'll just be stunned at the tutor's questions in class!! Comm fund tutor is quite strict too! I do hope I can survive this semmmmmmm~